The root came away like a held breath let go.
There was no sound at first. Liora felt it in her hands before she knew it, the long thread drawn through the dark of him, the small shining seed parting from the thousand fine roots that had held it, one by one, with a delicacy that she would not have believed. Each parted with a faint warm tug, like a stitch being drawn from a healed wound. She did not pull. She only followed it out, with the needle and the silk and every ounce of her attention, and the weight she had been carrying ran down the eleven cords and away.
Then the bell cracked.
It was not a bell. It was the sound of the world doing something that it had never done before. A single high clear note rose from the black slab and split down its middle, and the whole ring of leaning stones rang with it, and every one of them, one after another, from the north to the east to the south, broke along a hairline from crown to base and stood shuddering. A wind sprang up out of nowhere. It smelled of rain. It tore across the hilltop and lifted the ash from the slopes in long gray ribbons and flung it high into the morning, and it carried away on its back a sound that she would hear in her sleep for years. It was a very long, very faint, very polite sigh.
She looked up.
The Warden stood at the head of the slab. It had not moved. But it was no longer tall. It had shrunk, between one breath and the next, like a candle burning down, until the long gray coat hung from it in empty folds and the pale hands trembled on the stone. Its blank face had a crack across it. A thin bright line of light ran from brow to chin, and through the crack she could see something that was not a face at all. It was only a great and patient dark, as of a well with no bottom, and in it, very small and far off, something that might have been a star.
"Well," said the Warden.
Its voice had thinned. It was still mild. It was still courteous. But there was a sound under it like a reed in wind.
"It would appear that the terms have been fulfilled." It looked at its own hands, curiously, as one looks at a pair of gloves that no longer fit. "I shall have to consult the text. It is a most irregular conclusion. A gift, freely given, with a witness, and the weight divided among the willing. I do not believe that any clause provided for it."
"You said that it was a very small thing," said Liora. Her voice was a croak.
"I did." The cracked face tilted. "I find that I was in error. It is not a sensation that I am accustomed to." It was fading. She could see the cloud through its shoulder. "I should like to say that I wish you every happiness. I have been told that it is customary. I find that I mean it."
A pause. The wind eased.
"I did say that it was a very small thing," it said again, wonderingly, and this time it sounded almost sorry.
Then the gray coat folded in on itself, and there was only the wind.
She did not know how long she knelt there. The hilltop was very quiet. The gold had gone out of the grooves. The spiral lay dark and ordinary on the slab, like a pattern scratched on a tombstone by a child, and the two halves of the ring lay in their hollows, cold and plain and entirely inert. She let her hand slide from the stone. It left a faint imprint in the dust.
And she felt the cost.
It was not what she had braced for. She had thought that it would come like a blow. It came like a tide, slowly, and it did not fall on her alone. It came up the eleven threads from their far ends. She felt it arrive at each pair of hands in turn, small and bright and sharp as a splinter, and she heard the cries go up around the ring. A gasp from Dunna. A curse from Garrick, soft and surprised. The stable brothers, together, a low groan. It was not agony. It was the sensation of a very cold needle laid against the skin of the palm and drawn once, lightly, from heel to fingertip.
She looked at her left hand.
A line had appeared across it. It was fine and pale and perfectly straight, like a thread of white silk laid under the skin, running from the base of the thumb to the root of the smallest finger. It did not bleed. It did not hurt. It lay across her palm like the ghost of the seam she had drawn.
She looked at the others.
Every one of them had one. Hesta turned her hand over and over in the gray light with an expression of dazed delight. Mirel stared at hers with narrowed eyes, as a woman stares at a bruise she has not yet decided to mind. The scullery girl held her palm up to Tobin, and Tobin held up his, and they compared the thin white lines with grave attention, like soldiers comparing wounds.
"It is only a scar," said Hesta, in a wondering whisper. "It is only a scar."
"It's a seam," said Liora.
She turned to the man on the stone.
He had not moved. He lay with his eyes closed and his hand open in the hollow, and for one dreadful moment she thought that she had been wrong. She laid her palm on his chest. It was warm. It was warm all the way through. She felt the heart under it, slow and strong and perfectly regular, and she felt something that she had never felt, in all the months, under that hand. She felt nothing else. There was no cold. There was no thrum, no second pulse laid over the first, no restless swarm of dark small things moving beneath the skin. There was only a man.
"Dravek," she said.
His eyes opened.
They were gray. They were clear, and wide, and startled, as the eyes of a man who wakes from a very long sleep in a place that he does not know. He looked at the sky. He looked at the cracked stones. He lifted his free hand, slowly, and held it before his face, and turned it in the light.
The gray tracery was gone. The skin was pale and plain and quite unmarked, with the old scars across the knuckle and the little scar where a pen had once cut him. The lines that had crawled over it for thirteen years had not faded. They had simply ceased. And across the palm, thin and white and straight, from the heel of the thumb to the root of the smallest finger, ran a single fine line.
He stared at it.
"It is the same," he said, hoarsely. "It is the same as yours."
"It's the cost."
"It is a very small cost."
"It was always going to be," said Liora, and laughed, and found that she was weeping. "It was always going to be small, if it was shared. That was the whole of the trick."
He sat up.
He did it slowly, as a man sits up who has not tried in a long time, with his hand on the edge of the slab. She steadied him. He swung his legs over the side and sat there on the black stone with the wind in his hair, looking at his hands. He was shaking. He turned them over, and over, and lifted them to his face, and drew a long ragged breath through his fingers.
"It is gone," he said. "I cannot feel it. I have felt it every hour. I have felt it in my sleep. I did not know that I should not know where it had gone." His shoulders heaved. "I am so very light."
He wept. It came out of him without a sound, a long wracking helpless release, with his face in his hands and his whole body shaking. She put her arms around him. He turned and clung to her, and she held him. She had seen him weep before. She had never seen him weep like this, as a man weeps who has set down a thing so heavy that his arms do not know how to be empty.
She did not say anything. Behind her, Hesta had made a sound, and she heard the old woman's breath catch.
"Oh," said Hesta, very quietly. "Oh, my dear. It was Pell."
Liora lifted her head.
"It was Pell," said Hesta again, in a voice that shook and broke and went on. She was standing very straight, with the tears running freely down her seamed cheeks, and she was saying it aloud. She was saying it to the sky, in the open, with her hand pressed flat against her throat to feel the sound go out. "It was Pell who cut the date. It was Pell who wore the glove. It was Pell who sat in the Maelis kitchen, and I knew, and I could not say. I have been able to say nothing for thirteen years. And I am saying it." She drew a gasping breath. "I am saying it, and I am not choking."
She turned to the old man.
He was sitting on the ground at the foot of the stone, where he had slid down. His back was against the black slab, and his stump lay in the little hollow at its base, and his right hand still held, loosely, a single silken thread. He was smiling. It was a small, tired, entirely peaceful smile, and his eyes were half closed, and the wind stirred the white wisp on the crown of his head. A strange light lay on his face. It might have been the morning.
Liora knew it at once. She had seen it in a hundred rooms.
"Pell," she said.
She was beside him before she knew that she had moved. She went down on her knees in the ash and took his wrist. It was thin and warm and light, and the pulse in it was very slow. She laid her fingers against his throat. It fluttered, and caught, and fluttered.
He opened his eyes.
"Ah," said Pell. "There you are."
"Don't talk."
"I shall talk if I like. It is the first time in nine years that I have been able to." His voice was soft and whole and unstrained, and there was no catch in it at all. "It does not hurt, you know. The oath. It has simply gone out, like a lamp. I did not expect it to be so quiet."
"Let me look at you. Let me..."
"There is nothing to look at." He smiled. "It took what it was owed, my lady. It took it in the beginning. I have been dying for nine years, a little at a time, and I held on, because I was afraid of what was on the other side. I find that I am not."
"No." She had her hand against his chest. She could feel it, the slow tired failing of a heart that had been given a very long errand and had finished it. "No, please, not now, not when it's done."
"It is exactly the time." He lifted his hand, the right, and touched her cheek, very lightly. "I wished you to know that he would have been proud. Edrin. He was not a man who said it. He said that pride was a kind of weight. But I knew him for thirty years, and I never once saw him look at a thing as he looked at you." His eyes were bright. "He used to say that he had found his hands. I did not know what he meant. I do now."
She could not speak. The tears fell on his coat.
"The glove," said Pell. "Will you keep it? It is not worth anything. But it is the only thing that I have left to give."
"I'll keep it."
"Put it in the garden. Under the poppies." His mouth twitched. "I should like to be of some use to something."
He closed his eyes. The pale thread slipped from his fingers and lay across his knee. She felt the pulse under her hand slow, and slow, and slow. It did not stop all at once. It faded, as a note fades in a long room, into a stillness so gentle that she did not know the moment of it.
She held him. She held him for a long time, in the wind, with the ash flying about them and the ring of broken stones around her, and nobody spoke.
When she looked up, they had all come.
They stood in a half circle round the foot of the slab. Hesta, and Tobin, and Mirel. The stable brothers, with their caps in their hands. Dunna was weeping into her apron. Garrick had taken the unlit pipe from his teeth and was holding it before him in both hands. They did not say anything. They had seen death before. They stood around the old man as one stands round a fire, and kept watch.
"He had a good end," said Mirel gruffly, at last. She wiped her face with her wrist. "That is more than most."
They buried him on the hill.
They did it that afternoon, with a spade that one of the brothers had carried up on his back for no reason that he could explain, in a place at the foot of the black stone where the ash lay thinnest. It was a poor grave, shallow and plain. Tobin dug it, with his lips pressed tight and his face set, and when the brothers tried to take the spade from him, he looked at them, and they stopped. Liora laid the old man in it herself, wrapped in Hesta's shawl. She put his stick beside him, and his hat. She did not put the glove in. She kept it, folded, in the pocket of her cloak.
Dravek stood at the head of the grave.
He had risen at last, unsteadily, with Hesta's arm beneath his elbow, and he stood bareheaded in the wind, with his hands at his sides. He looked at the long shape under the shawl. When the spade began to fall, he did not turn away.
"I did not know him," he said, to no one. "I did not ever learn what he wished. I did not ask. He was in my house for twelve winters, and I never once asked him what he wanted."
"He wanted to stop running," said Liora.
"Yes." He drew a breath. "I should have liked to tell him that I was glad that he did."
There was a small cold hand in the crook of his elbow.
He looked down. Tobin had come up beside him. The boy was not looking at him. He was looking at the grave, with his sharp face white and streaked with earth and his jaw set. But his fingers were closed lightly around the sleeve of the king's shirt, as one takes hold of something that might be about to fall.
Neither of them said anything.
"Will it hold?" said Tobin, after a while. He said it to the earth. "The north. The Blight. You said that it would cross the ridge."
"I do not know," said Dravek. "The Warden said so. I do not think that it lied. I think that it believed it."
"Liora said that it was the Pact's appetite."
"She did."
"Do you believe her?"
He was quiet for a long time. The wind went over the hill. Far off to the north, beyond the broken ring and the dead trees and the long gray shoulder of the world, a thin line of cloud lay along the sky above the ridge. It was white. It was only cloud. It hung there, very still, in the clean afternoon, and nothing came down from it.
"Yes," said Dravek. "I find that I do."
He turned.
They were alone for a moment. The others had drawn off, a little way down the slope, to give them the grave. The wind lifted her hair. She stood with the old man's glove in her pocket and a white line across her palm, and she looked at the man in front of her, and he looked at her, and for the first time since a gray morning in a cold hall, he was not on the other side of a line.
"May I ask you something?" said Dravek.
"Always."
"Will you stay?"
His voice shook. It was barely a breath. But it was not the question that he had asked her in an infirmary, with his hands behind his back and his shoulders squared against the answer. It was not the question of a man who has been told that he must not hope. It was the question of a man who has been told that he may, and who is standing in the wind, afraid of the sound of his own heart.
"You are free," he said. "There is nothing between us. No ring, no clause, no cord. If you wished to go to the fen tonight, I should carry your bag as far as the gate." He swallowed. "I should like you to know that you can say no. I would not hold it against you. I would be glad to have been asked."
"I know."
"Will you?"
She looked at him. At the pale unmarked face, and the clear gray eyes, and the white seam across his palm that was the twin of her own. She thought of a girl of sixteen scrubbing a floor. She thought of a woman of twenty-six curtsying, in torn silk, at the foot of a dais. *Someone who stays.*
She had thought that it was a thing that happened to other people.
"Ask me again," said Liora, "when we're old."
He stared at her.
"Ask me when your hair has gone white," she said, "and your back hurts in the wet, and you can't get up the tower stair without cursing. Ask me when Tobin has a beard, and Hesta's roses have grown over the east wall. Ask me every year, on the day that I came." Her voice cracked on it, and she let it. "And every year, I'll say yes. I'll say it as often as you like. It's the only answer that I've ever had."
His face broke open.
It was not a smile. It was something much larger than a smile, a slow wide blazing thing that began in his eyes and spread through his whole body, until she thought that he might simply come apart in the wind from the sheer force of it. He took her face in both hands. His palms were warm, and quite steady, and each of them bore a thin white line.
"Yes," said Dravek. "I shall ask. I shall ask every year, for as long as I am permitted."
"Good."
"I shall be very tiresome about it."
"I'm counting on it."
He kissed her, there on the hill, in the wind and the ash and the light of a plain afternoon, with the old man's grave at their feet and the cracked stones standing round them like a ring of old friends. Nobody looked. Nobody had to. Down the slope, Hesta had put her hand over her mouth and turned her back with an air of great dignity, and Mirel had begun, with a great show of preoccupation, to count the stable brothers.
They went down in the gold of the evening, all of them, in a long straggling line.
At the foot of the hill, where the black rock gave way to the gray earth, Liora stopped and looked back. The ring of stones stood on the crown of the rise, cracked and leaning and no longer humming. The slab lay black in the middle, and a thin wind moved the ash across it. It was a ruin. It was only a ruin, old and plain and quite empty, and she felt nothing at all.
A small shape stood at the edge of the ring.
It was Tobin. He had stayed behind. He stood at the foot of the old man's grave with his hands at his sides and the little wooden apple in his fist, and he was looking down at the earth. She watched him. He did not move for a long time. Then he stooped, and laid the apple very carefully on the mound, in the center, where the turf had been broken.
He stood a moment longer. Then he turned, and came down the hill alone, with his head up, and did not look back.
He did not come near them. He fell in at the end of the line, behind the stable brothers, a pace from Hesta's shoulder. He did not speak. But when they reached the edge of the forest, and the gray trees closed about them, and the road ran away toward the lake, she saw him take a step, and then another, that carried him, without any change in the set of his face, to within arm's length of the man who walked at her side.
He did not go closer. He did not need to.
It was the first time that he had chosen the distance.
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The root came away like a held breath let go.
There was no sound at first. Liora felt it in her hands before she knew it, the long thread drawn through the dark of him, the small shining seed parting from the thousand fine roots that had held it, one by one, with a delicacy that she would not have believed. Each parted with a faint warm tug, like a stitch being drawn from a healed wound. She did not pull. She only followed it out, with the needle and the silk and every ounce of her attention, and the weight she had been carrying ran down the eleven cords and away.
Then the bell cracked.
It was not a bell. It was the sound of the world doing something that it had never done before. A single high clear note rose from the black slab and split down its middle, and the whole ring of leaning stones rang with it, and every one of them, one after another, from the north to the east to the south, broke along a hairline from crown to base and stood shuddering. A wind sprang up out of nowhere. It smelled of rain. It tore across the hilltop and lifted the ash from the slopes in long gray ribbons and flung it high into the morning, and it carried away on its back a sound that she would hear in her sleep for years. It was a very long, very faint, very polite sigh.
She looked up.
The Warden stood at the head of the slab. It had not moved. But it was no longer tall. It had shrunk, between one breath and the next, like a candle burning down, until the long gray coat hung from it in empty folds and the pale hands trembled on the stone. Its blank face had a crack across it. A thin bright line of light ran from brow to chin, and through the crack she could see something that was not a face at all. It was only a great and patient dark, as of a well with no bottom, and in it, very small and far off, something that might have been a star.
"Well," said the Warden.
Its voice had thinned. It was still mild. It was still courteous. But there was a sound under it like a reed in wind.
"It would appear that the terms have been fulfilled." It looked at its own hands, curiously, as one looks at a pair of gloves that no longer fit. "I shall have to consult the text. It is a most irregular conclusion. A gift, freely given, with a witness, and the weight divided among the willing. I do not believe that any clause provided for it."
"You said that it was a very small thing," said Liora. Her voice was a croak.
"I did." The cracked face tilted. "I find that I was in error. It is not a sensation that I am accustomed to." It was fading. She could see the cloud through its shoulder. "I should like to say that I wish you every happiness. I have been told that it is customary. I find that I mean it."
A pause. The wind eased.
"I did say that it was a very small thing," it said again, wonderingly, and this time it sounded almost sorry.
Then the gray coat folded in on itself, and there was only the wind.
She did not know how long she knelt there. The hilltop was very quiet. The gold had gone out of the grooves. The spiral lay dark and ordinary on the slab, like a pattern scratched on a tombstone by a child, and the two halves of the ring lay in their hollows, cold and plain and entirely inert. She let her hand slide from the stone. It left a faint imprint in the dust.
And she felt the cost.
It was not what she had braced for. She had thought that it would come like a blow. It came like a tide, slowly, and it did not fall on her alone. It came up the eleven threads from their far ends. She felt it arrive at each pair of hands in turn, small and bright and sharp as a splinter, and she heard the cries go up around the ring. A gasp from Dunna. A curse from Garrick, soft and surprised. The stable brothers, together, a low groan. It was not agony. It was the sensation of a very cold needle laid against the skin of the palm and drawn once, lightly, from heel to fingertip.
She looked at her left hand.
A line had appeared across it. It was fine and pale and perfectly straight, like a thread of white silk laid under the skin, running from the base of the thumb to the root of the smallest finger. It did not bleed. It did not hurt. It lay across her palm like the ghost of the seam she had drawn.
She looked at the others.
Every one of them had one. Hesta turned her hand over and over in the gray light with an expression of dazed delight. Mirel stared at hers with narrowed eyes, as a woman stares at a bruise she has not yet decided to mind. The scullery girl held her palm up to Tobin, and Tobin held up his, and they compared the thin white lines with grave attention, like soldiers comparing wounds.
"It is only a scar," said Hesta, in a wondering whisper. "It is only a scar."
"It's a seam," said Liora.
She turned to the man on the stone.
He had not moved. He lay with his eyes closed and his hand open in the hollow, and for one dreadful moment she thought that she had been wrong. She laid her palm on his chest. It was warm. It was warm all the way through. She felt the heart under it, slow and strong and perfectly regular, and she felt something that she had never felt, in all the months, under that hand. She felt nothing else. There was no cold. There was no thrum, no second pulse laid over the first, no restless swarm of dark small things moving beneath the skin. There was only a man.
"Dravek," she said.
His eyes opened.
They were gray. They were clear, and wide, and startled, as the eyes of a man who wakes from a very long sleep in a place that he does not know. He looked at the sky. He looked at the cracked stones. He lifted his free hand, slowly, and held it before his face, and turned it in the light.
The gray tracery was gone. The skin was pale and plain and quite unmarked, with the old scars across the knuckle and the little scar where a pen had once cut him. The lines that had crawled over it for thirteen years had not faded. They had simply ceased. And across the palm, thin and white and straight, from the heel of the thumb to the root of the smallest finger, ran a single fine line.
He stared at it.
"It is the same," he said, hoarsely. "It is the same as yours."
"It's the cost."
"It is a very small cost."
"It was always going to be," said Liora, and laughed, and found that she was weeping. "It was always going to be small, if it was shared. That was the whole of the trick."
He sat up.
He did it slowly, as a man sits up who has not tried in a long time, with his hand on the edge of the slab. She steadied him. He swung his legs over the side and sat there on the black stone with the wind in his hair, looking at his hands. He was shaking. He turned them over, and over, and lifted them to his face, and drew a long ragged breath through his fingers.
"It is gone," he said. "I cannot feel it. I have felt it every hour. I have felt it in my sleep. I did not know that I should not know where it had gone." His shoulders heaved. "I am so very light."
He wept. It came out of him without a sound, a long wracking helpless release, with his face in his hands and his whole body shaking. She put her arms around him. He turned and clung to her, and she held him. She had seen him weep before. She had never seen him weep like this, as a man weeps who has set down a thing so heavy that his arms do not know how to be empty.
She did not say anything. Behind her, Hesta had made a sound, and she heard the old woman's breath catch.
"Oh," said Hesta, very quietly. "Oh, my dear. It was Pell."
Liora lifted her head.
"It was Pell," said Hesta again, in a voice that shook and broke and went on. She was standing very straight, with the tears running freely down her seamed cheeks, and she was saying it aloud. She was saying it to the sky, in the open, with her hand pressed flat against her throat to feel the sound go out. "It was Pell who cut the date. It was Pell who wore the glove. It was Pell who sat in the Maelis kitchen, and I knew, and I could not say. I have been able to say nothing for thirteen years. And I am saying it." She drew a gasping breath. "I am saying it, and I am not choking."
She turned to the old man.
He was sitting on the ground at the foot of the stone, where he had slid down. His back was against the black slab, and his stump lay in the little hollow at its base, and his right hand still held, loosely, a single silken thread. He was smiling. It was a small, tired, entirely peaceful smile, and his eyes were half closed, and the wind stirred the white wisp on the crown of his head. A strange light lay on his face. It might have been the morning.
Liora knew it at once. She had seen it in a hundred rooms.
"Pell," she said.
She was beside him before she knew that she had moved. She went down on her knees in the ash and took his wrist. It was thin and warm and light, and the pulse in it was very slow. She laid her fingers against his throat. It fluttered, and caught, and fluttered.
He opened his eyes.
"Ah," said Pell. "There you are."
"Don't talk."
"I shall talk if I like. It is the first time in nine years that I have been able to." His voice was soft and whole and unstrained, and there was no catch in it at all. "It does not hurt, you know. The oath. It has simply gone out, like a lamp. I did not expect it to be so quiet."
"Let me look at you. Let me..."
"There is nothing to look at." He smiled. "It took what it was owed, my lady. It took it in the beginning. I have been dying for nine years, a little at a time, and I held on, because I was afraid of what was on the other side. I find that I am not."
"No." She had her hand against his chest. She could feel it, the slow tired failing of a heart that had been given a very long errand and had finished it. "No, please, not now, not when it's done."
"It is exactly the time." He lifted his hand, the right, and touched her cheek, very lightly. "I wished you to know that he would have been proud. Edrin. He was not a man who said it. He said that pride was a kind of weight. But I knew him for thirty years, and I never once saw him look at a thing as he looked at you." His eyes were bright. "He used to say that he had found his hands. I did not know what he meant. I do now."
She could not speak. The tears fell on his coat.
"The glove," said Pell. "Will you keep it? It is not worth anything. But it is the only thing that I have left to give."
"I'll keep it."
"Put it in the garden. Under the poppies." His mouth twitched. "I should like to be of some use to something."
He closed his eyes. The pale thread slipped from his fingers and lay across his knee. She felt the pulse under her hand slow, and slow, and slow. It did not stop all at once. It faded, as a note fades in a long room, into a stillness so gentle that she did not know the moment of it.
She held him. She held him for a long time, in the wind, with the ash flying about them and the ring of broken stones around her, and nobody spoke.
When she looked up, they had all come.
They stood in a half circle round the foot of the slab. Hesta, and Tobin, and Mirel. The stable brothers, with their caps in their hands. Dunna was weeping into her apron. Garrick had taken the unlit pipe from his teeth and was holding it before him in both hands. They did not say anything. They had seen death before. They stood around the old man as one stands round a fire, and kept watch.
"He had a good end," said Mirel gruffly, at last. She wiped her face with her wrist. "That is more than most."
They buried him on the hill.
They did it that afternoon, with a spade that one of the brothers had carried up on his back for no reason that he could explain, in a place at the foot of the black stone where the ash lay thinnest. It was a poor grave, shallow and plain. Tobin dug it, with his lips pressed tight and his face set, and when the brothers tried to take the spade from him, he looked at them, and they stopped. Liora laid the old man in it herself, wrapped in Hesta's shawl. She put his stick beside him, and his hat. She did not put the glove in. She kept it, folded, in the pocket of her cloak.
Dravek stood at the head of the grave.
He had risen at last, unsteadily, with Hesta's arm beneath his elbow, and he stood bareheaded in the wind, with his hands at his sides. He looked at the long shape under the shawl. When the spade began to fall, he did not turn away.
"I did not know him," he said, to no one. "I did not ever learn what he wished. I did not ask. He was in my house for twelve winters, and I never once asked him what he wanted."
"He wanted to stop running," said Liora.
"Yes." He drew a breath. "I should have liked to tell him that I was glad that he did."
There was a small cold hand in the crook of his elbow.
He looked down. Tobin had come up beside him. The boy was not looking at him. He was looking at the grave, with his sharp face white and streaked with earth and his jaw set. But his fingers were closed lightly around the sleeve of the king's shirt, as one takes hold of something that might be about to fall.
Neither of them said anything.
"Will it hold?" said Tobin, after a while. He said it to the earth. "The north. The Blight. You said that it would cross the ridge."
"I do not know," said Dravek. "The Warden said so. I do not think that it lied. I think that it believed it."
"Liora said that it was the Pact's appetite."
"She did."
"Do you believe her?"
He was quiet for a long time. The wind went over the hill. Far off to the north, beyond the broken ring and the dead trees and the long gray shoulder of the world, a thin line of cloud lay along the sky above the ridge. It was white. It was only cloud. It hung there, very still, in the clean afternoon, and nothing came down from it.
"Yes," said Dravek. "I find that I do."
He turned.
They were alone for a moment. The others had drawn off, a little way down the slope, to give them the grave. The wind lifted her hair. She stood with the old man's glove in her pocket and a white line across her palm, and she looked at the man in front of her, and he looked at her, and for the first time since a gray morning in a cold hall, he was not on the other side of a line.
"May I ask you something?" said Dravek.
"Always."
"Will you stay?"
His voice shook. It was barely a breath. But it was not the question that he had asked her in an infirmary, with his hands behind his back and his shoulders squared against the answer. It was not the question of a man who has been told that he must not hope. It was the question of a man who has been told that he may, and who is standing in the wind, afraid of the sound of his own heart.
"You are free," he said. "There is nothing between us. No ring, no clause, no cord. If you wished to go to the fen tonight, I should carry your bag as far as the gate." He swallowed. "I should like you to know that you can say no. I would not hold it against you. I would be glad to have been asked."
"I know."
"Will you?"
She looked at him. At the pale unmarked face, and the clear gray eyes, and the white seam across his palm that was the twin of her own. She thought of a girl of sixteen scrubbing a floor. She thought of a woman of twenty-six curtsying, in torn silk, at the foot of a dais. *Someone who stays.*
She had thought that it was a thing that happened to other people.
"Ask me again," said Liora, "when we're old."
He stared at her.
"Ask me when your hair has gone white," she said, "and your back hurts in the wet, and you can't get up the tower stair without cursing. Ask me when Tobin has a beard, and Hesta's roses have grown over the east wall. Ask me every year, on the day that I came." Her voice cracked on it, and she let it. "And every year, I'll say yes. I'll say it as often as you like. It's the only answer that I've ever had."
His face broke open.
It was not a smile. It was something much larger than a smile, a slow wide blazing thing that began in his eyes and spread through his whole body, until she thought that he might simply come apart in the wind from the sheer force of it. He took her face in both hands. His palms were warm, and quite steady, and each of them bore a thin white line.
"Yes," said Dravek. "I shall ask. I shall ask every year, for as long as I am permitted."
"Good."
"I shall be very tiresome about it."
"I'm counting on it."
He kissed her, there on the hill, in the wind and the ash and the light of a plain afternoon, with the old man's grave at their feet and the cracked stones standing round them like a ring of old friends. Nobody looked. Nobody had to. Down the slope, Hesta had put her hand over her mouth and turned her back with an air of great dignity, and Mirel had begun, with a great show of preoccupation, to count the stable brothers.
They went down in the gold of the evening, all of them, in a long straggling line.
At the foot of the hill, where the black rock gave way to the gray earth, Liora stopped and looked back. The ring of stones stood on the crown of the rise, cracked and leaning and no longer humming. The slab lay black in the middle, and a thin wind moved the ash across it. It was a ruin. It was only a ruin, old and plain and quite empty, and she felt nothing at all.
A small shape stood at the edge of the ring.
It was Tobin. He had stayed behind. He stood at the foot of the old man's grave with his hands at his sides and the little wooden apple in his fist, and he was looking down at the earth. She watched him. He did not move for a long time. Then he stooped, and laid the apple very carefully on the mound, in the center, where the turf had been broken.
He stood a moment longer. Then he turned, and came down the hill alone, with his head up, and did not look back.
He did not come near them. He fell in at the end of the line, behind the stable brothers, a pace from Hesta's shoulder. He did not speak. But when they reached the edge of the forest, and the gray trees closed about them, and the road ran away toward the lake, she saw him take a step, and then another, that carried him, without any change in the set of his face, to within arm's length of the man who walked at her side.
He did not go closer. He did not need to.
It was the first time that he had chosen the distance.
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