Chapter 05

Chapter 5: What We Protect

Chapter 5: What We Protect

The map had seventeen marks on it.

Valerie had made them herself over the course of three weeks — small precise crosses at the points where Governor's patrols had been confirmed, circles where they had been suspected, a line of dots tracing what she believed was the primary supply route between Crestfall and the eastern garrison. She had built it the way she built everything: carefully, incrementally, from verified information and reasoned inference, never marking something as certain until it was.

She was studying the eastern supply route when Wren rode in.

She heard the horse before she saw it — the rhythm wrong, too fast for a routine return, the particular urgency of hooves when the rider is not thinking about the horse. Reed looked up from the supply ledger. Mira set down the canvas she was patching. Valerie did not move, but something in her had already registered the sound and begun its own calculations before her conscious mind had caught up.

Wren came through the camp entrance at a pace that scattered the two people nearest the gate and pulled his horse up short in the central clearing with the graceless haste of someone who had been riding hard and was no longer thinking about how things looked.

He was seventeen. His face, when he pulled down his riding scarf, was the color of old ash.

"Report," Valerie said.

He reported.

She listened to all of it — the ambush on the south road, the two escorts whose names she knew, the confirmation from two separate sources that Aldric Vane was alive and in custody and being transported to Crestfall. She listened without moving. She had learned young that the body's first responses to bad news were rarely useful, and that the discipline of stillness in the first moments bought time for the mind to catch up to what the gut already knew.

Wren finished. The camp had gone quiet around him — the particular quiet of people who have heard something and are waiting to find out what it means.

Valerie began to give orders.

The words came from the part of her that had been trained for exactly this — the contingency part, the part her father had built with years of patient and impatient instruction. Confirm the intelligence. Cross-reference with Mira's network. Assemble the section leaders in ten minutes. She heard her own voice issuing these instructions with the flat efficiency of a mechanism performing its function, and some smaller, quieter part of her noted the distance between the voice and the person producing it and filed that observation away for a time when it would be safe to examine.

Reed was already moving. Mira had set aside the canvas entirely.

Valerie looked down at the map.

The seventeen marks looked back at her.

She became aware, at the edge of her peripheral vision, of Elena standing near the ash tree at the north end of the camp — she had been there for her morning hour, talking with Pip about something that had made him laugh twice, which Valerie had noted without intending to. Elena was not moving. She was watching Valerie with the focused stillness of someone who had assessed the situation and determined that stillness was the correct response to it.

Valerie looked away.

She looked at her hands. The map was creased where she had gripped it — a clean crease across the eastern supply route, bisecting the dot-line precisely. She smoothed it with her thumb and did not look at her hands again.

---

The section leaders assembled in the command tent. There were four of them: Reed, Mira, a woman named Sorrel who ran the eastern scouts, and a man named Dav who had been with the Shadow Band since before Valerie was born and whose loyalty to Aldric was so complete that it had occasionally been a problem.

She laid out what they knew. Then she laid out what they didn't know. Then she asked for assessments.

They gave them. Crestfall was three days' ride under normal conditions — longer with military traffic on the roads. The garrison there was significant, the walls old but solid. There was no intelligence on the internal layout of the holding facility. A direct assault with their current numbers would be — Sorrel chose her word carefully — inadvisable.

"We wait," Dav said. He said it with the confidence of a man stating something obvious. "They won't move against him immediately. He's leverage — they'll want to use him first. We have time to prepare properly, reach out to Aldenmoor, build a real approach."

"Two weeks minimum," Reed said. "Probably three."

"He doesn't have three weeks," Valerie said.

"You don't know that."

"I know the Governor." She kept her voice level. "He's been trying to break the Shadow Band for four years. He has our founder in a cell. He's not going to sit on that — he's going to use it. Publicly, quickly, as a demonstration." She looked around the table. "We have days. Not weeks."

The silence that followed was the silence of people who thought she might be right and were weighing that against the cost of acting on it.

"With what force?" Sorrel asked. "You just said direct assault is off the table."

"Direct assault with our full numbers is off the table. It's too visible, too slow, too easy to intercept." She looked at the map. "A small team moves faster, draws less attention, has more options inside a fortified position."

"How small," Reed said. His voice had a particular flatness that meant he already knew the answer and did not like it.

"One," Valerie said.

The tent went quiet in a different way.

"Valerie."

"The rest of you move the camp. Get clear of this location — we have intelligence suggesting the position is compromised, which means we have hours, not days, before a sweep comes through. Get to the secondary site. Wait for contact." She began rolling the map. "I'll move on Crestfall alone. Smaller target, faster approach, better options for extraction."

"And if something goes wrong," Dav said.

"Then you have standing orders and a chain of command." She looked at him steadily. "The Shadow Band doesn't end because one person fails a mission. My grandfather built it better than that."

Dav opened his mouth. Closed it. The mention of her grandfather had the effect it usually had — not silence exactly, but a recalibration, a reminder of something that mattered to him more than his current objection.

"There's the matter of the herbalist," Mira said, from the end of the table.

Everyone looked at Valerie.

She had been expecting this. She had been not-thinking about it since Wren had ridden in, which was its own form of thinking. Elena could not be left with the main group — too many unknowns, too much information she had accumulated in four days of careful observation. She could not be released on the road — the Governor's patrols were active and she would be picked up within hours and questioned, and whatever she said or didn't say, the risk was unacceptable.

"She comes with me," Valerie said.

No one said anything for a moment.

"She's a civilian," Reed said.

"She's a liability either way. With me, I can manage it. With you, she's an unknown variable in an already compromised situation." She met his eyes. "I'll handle it."

Those three words again. She heard them come out of her mouth and recognized them — the words she used when she didn't have a complete plan and needed people to stop asking questions until she did.

Reed heard it too. She could see it in the way he didn't push further.

The meeting ended. She gave final instructions — the secondary site coordinates, the contact protocol, the timeline. One by one the section leaders left, and then it was just her in the tent with the half-rolled map and the sound of the camp beginning to dismantle itself around her.

She went to find Elena.

---

Elena was where Valerie had last seen her — near the ash tree, though she had moved slightly, turning to watch the camp's sudden shift in activity with the focused attention of someone reading a situation in real time. She had her satchel on her shoulder. She had put it on, Valerie noted, at some point between Wren's arrival and now, without being told to.

Valerie stopped in front of her.

"You're coming with me," she said.

Elena looked at her. Those clear eyes, doing their cataloguing — reading Valerie's face the way she read injured hands and inflamed tissue, looking for the information that wasn't being stated.

"How far?" Elena asked.

Valerie paused.

It was not the question she had expected. She had expected negotiation, or fear, or the particular calculation of someone trying to find an angle. She had not expected the simple, practical assessment of distance. It had the quality of someone who had already decided to come and wanted only the information relevant to preparation.

"Three days," Valerie said. "Maybe four."

Elena nodded once. "I'll need to supplement my supplies before we leave. Fifteen minutes."

She walked toward the area where Mira's stores were being packed, with the purposeful efficiency of someone who had a task and was performing it. Valerie watched her go.

She had expected resistance. She had prepared, in the compressed and efficient way she prepared for things, for various forms of it — argument, fear, a bid for release. She had not prepared for this. For the way Elena moved through the situation like water moving through a space, taking its shape without losing its nature.

She turned back toward the command tent.

The map was still on the table, half-rolled. She picked it up and finished rolling it and stood for a moment in the tent that was almost empty now — the supply crates gone, the camp stools stacked by the entrance, the hooks on the tent pole bare where Aldric's secondary maps had hung.

Her father hung his maps the same way everywhere they camped. Three hooks on the left tent pole, two on the right, the primary route map always at eye level. It was so consistent that she had stopped seeing it — the way you stopped seeing the furniture in a room you lived in, the way background became invisible with repetition.

The hooks were bare.

She looked at them for longer than she meant to.

Her father was not a warm man. She had understood this early, in the gradual way children understand things about their parents — not in a single moment of revelation but in accumulated small recognitions, each one adding to a picture that she had never quite been able to step back far enough to see whole. He had taught her everything she knew that was worth knowing. He had also taught her, without meaning to, that the price of his approval was a standard she could approach but never reach, because the standard moved when she got close to it.

She had decided, at some point in her adolescence, that this was fine. That she did not need his approval to function. That the work was the work and she would do it well because it mattered, not because it would make him see her differently.

She had almost entirely believed this.

The hooks were bare and the tent was almost empty and three days east her father was in a cell and she was standing here looking at hooks.

"I'm sorry."

The voice came from the tent entrance. Elena was standing at the threshold — not inside, one hand on the tent flap, her satchel newly weighted with whatever she had taken from Mira's stores. Her face had the quality it had when she was being careful with something fragile — not pitying, not performatively sympathetic. Just present. Attending.

"I didn't mean to intrude," Elena said. "I came to tell you I was ready."

Valerie became aware that she had not rebuilt her expression. The realization arrived a beat late — she had been standing here long enough, distracted enough, that the careful neutral had lapsed, and Elena had walked in during the lapse and seen whatever was on her face instead.

She reconstructed it. Quickly, efficiently, the way she always did.

But Elena had already seen.

"I'm ready," Valerie said.

A beat. Elena looked at her — not the cataloguing look, not the clinical assessment. Something quieter than that. Something that did not require a response.

"I know," Elena said. And then, simply: "Let's go."

She stepped back from the entrance to let Valerie through.

Valerie walked out of the tent without looking back at the hooks.

---

They left as the light began to change — that particular shift in late afternoon when the gold started going out of it, leaving something thinner and more honest in its place. The rest of the Shadow Band moved northeast; Valerie and Elena moved southeast, toward Crestfall, toward the road that would take three days to walk and needed to look like it was being walked for ordinary reasons.

The forest closed around them quickly. Valerie knew this part of Blackwood — she had moved through it enough times that the path was in her body rather than her mind, the turns and the landmarks stored somewhere below conscious thought. She moved without hesitating. Elena matched her pace without being asked.

They did not speak for the first hour.

This was not unusual in Valerie's experience of moving through difficult terrain — conversation was a distraction, and distraction had costs. But the silence with Elena had a different quality than operational silence. It wasn't absence. It was the specific quality of a person who was comfortable with quiet, who was not filling it because they needed to but because they didn't need to.

Valerie was aware of Elena at the edge of her attention in a way she was not usually aware of people. Not threat-awareness — the constant background monitoring she maintained for sounds and movements that didn't belong. Something else. A presence that registered differently than the presence of Reed or Mira or any of her operatives, something that had a texture to it that she didn't have a category for.

She catalogued this and did not examine it.

The trees thickened. The last of the afternoon light filtered through in narrow shafts that touched the ground at intervals, marking time in a way that had nothing to do with clocks. Somewhere to the left, water moved over stone.

Elena said, without preamble: "The camp has been there for six weeks."

Valerie glanced at her.

"Mira mentioned the moss growth on the north post," Elena said. "And the way the cook fire ash has built up at the primary pit. Six weeks, maybe a little more." A pause. "That's longer than you'd usually stay in one place."

"Yes."

"Because of the Aldenmoor negotiation."

It was not a question. Valerie looked at her again — longer this time.

"You inferred that."

"Mira talked about supply runs that went east instead of north. East from that location puts you toward the border towns. If you were negotiating with someone significant, you'd want to be positioned to meet quickly." Elena stepped over a root without looking down. "Aldenmoor is the largest independent holdout in the eastern region. If your father was trying to build an alliance—"

"He was," Valerie said.

She had not intended to confirm it. The confirmation came out of her before she had decided to give it, which was not something that happened to her with any regularity.

Elena did not react to the confirmation with anything that looked like triumph or calculation. She simply nodded, the small nod of someone receiving information they had expected, and continued walking.

"That's why the timeline matters," she said. "If the Governor knows about the Aldenmoor contact, he'll use your father as leverage to prevent the alliance from forming. Not just as a demonstration — as a block."

"Yes," Valerie said again.

The word came out differently this time. Less controlled. She heard it and recognized the difference and did not know what to do about it, which was its own kind of answer.

Ahead of them, the path narrowed between two large stones and then opened again into a section of forest where the trees were older and the canopy higher, the undergrowth thinning to bare ground and root systems. The light here was different — dimmer but more even, the kind of light that came from above without direction.

Valerie walked into it and felt, briefly and without permission, something that was not fear and not grief and not the cold competence she had been running on since Wren rode in.

Something that was simply the weight of it, acknowledged without armoring against it, present for one unguarded moment before she put it away.

Elena walked beside her and said nothing.

The forest went on.

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Chapter 05

Chapter 5: What We Protect

Chapter 5: What We Protect

The map had seventeen marks on it.

Valerie had made them herself over the course of three weeks — small precise crosses at the points where Governor's patrols had been confirmed, circles where they had been suspected, a line of dots tracing what she believed was the primary supply route between Crestfall and the eastern garrison. She had built it the way she built everything: carefully, incrementally, from verified information and reasoned inference, never marking something as certain until it was.

She was studying the eastern supply route when Wren rode in.

She heard the horse before she saw it — the rhythm wrong, too fast for a routine return, the particular urgency of hooves when the rider is not thinking about the horse. Reed looked up from the supply ledger. Mira set down the canvas she was patching. Valerie did not move, but something in her had already registered the sound and begun its own calculations before her conscious mind had caught up.

Wren came through the camp entrance at a pace that scattered the two people nearest the gate and pulled his horse up short in the central clearing with the graceless haste of someone who had been riding hard and was no longer thinking about how things looked.

He was seventeen. His face, when he pulled down his riding scarf, was the color of old ash.

"Report," Valerie said.

He reported.

She listened to all of it — the ambush on the south road, the two escorts whose names she knew, the confirmation from two separate sources that Aldric Vane was alive and in custody and being transported to Crestfall. She listened without moving. She had learned young that the body's first responses to bad news were rarely useful, and that the discipline of stillness in the first moments bought time for the mind to catch up to what the gut already knew.

Wren finished. The camp had gone quiet around him — the particular quiet of people who have heard something and are waiting to find out what it means.

Valerie began to give orders.

The words came from the part of her that had been trained for exactly this — the contingency part, the part her father had built with years of patient and impatient instruction. Confirm the intelligence. Cross-reference with Mira's network. Assemble the section leaders in ten minutes. She heard her own voice issuing these instructions with the flat efficiency of a mechanism performing its function, and some smaller, quieter part of her noted the distance between the voice and the person producing it and filed that observation away for a time when it would be safe to examine.

Reed was already moving. Mira had set aside the canvas entirely.

Valerie looked down at the map.

The seventeen marks looked back at her.

She became aware, at the edge of her peripheral vision, of Elena standing near the ash tree at the north end of the camp — she had been there for her morning hour, talking with Pip about something that had made him laugh twice, which Valerie had noted without intending to. Elena was not moving. She was watching Valerie with the focused stillness of someone who had assessed the situation and determined that stillness was the correct response to it.

Valerie looked away.

She looked at her hands. The map was creased where she had gripped it — a clean crease across the eastern supply route, bisecting the dot-line precisely. She smoothed it with her thumb and did not look at her hands again.

---

The section leaders assembled in the command tent. There were four of them: Reed, Mira, a woman named Sorrel who ran the eastern scouts, and a man named Dav who had been with the Shadow Band since before Valerie was born and whose loyalty to Aldric was so complete that it had occasionally been a problem.

She laid out what they knew. Then she laid out what they didn't know. Then she asked for assessments.

They gave them. Crestfall was three days' ride under normal conditions — longer with military traffic on the roads. The garrison there was significant, the walls old but solid. There was no intelligence on the internal layout of the holding facility. A direct assault with their current numbers would be — Sorrel chose her word carefully — inadvisable.

"We wait," Dav said. He said it with the confidence of a man stating something obvious. "They won't move against him immediately. He's leverage — they'll want to use him first. We have time to prepare properly, reach out to Aldenmoor, build a real approach."

"Two weeks minimum," Reed said. "Probably three."

"He doesn't have three weeks," Valerie said.

"You don't know that."

"I know the Governor." She kept her voice level. "He's been trying to break the Shadow Band for four years. He has our founder in a cell. He's not going to sit on that — he's going to use it. Publicly, quickly, as a demonstration." She looked around the table. "We have days. Not weeks."

The silence that followed was the silence of people who thought she might be right and were weighing that against the cost of acting on it.

"With what force?" Sorrel asked. "You just said direct assault is off the table."

"Direct assault with our full numbers is off the table. It's too visible, too slow, too easy to intercept." She looked at the map. "A small team moves faster, draws less attention, has more options inside a fortified position."

"How small," Reed said. His voice had a particular flatness that meant he already knew the answer and did not like it.

"One," Valerie said.

The tent went quiet in a different way.

"Valerie."

"The rest of you move the camp. Get clear of this location — we have intelligence suggesting the position is compromised, which means we have hours, not days, before a sweep comes through. Get to the secondary site. Wait for contact." She began rolling the map. "I'll move on Crestfall alone. Smaller target, faster approach, better options for extraction."

"And if something goes wrong," Dav said.

"Then you have standing orders and a chain of command." She looked at him steadily. "The Shadow Band doesn't end because one person fails a mission. My grandfather built it better than that."

Dav opened his mouth. Closed it. The mention of her grandfather had the effect it usually had — not silence exactly, but a recalibration, a reminder of something that mattered to him more than his current objection.

"There's the matter of the herbalist," Mira said, from the end of the table.

Everyone looked at Valerie.

She had been expecting this. She had been not-thinking about it since Wren had ridden in, which was its own form of thinking. Elena could not be left with the main group — too many unknowns, too much information she had accumulated in four days of careful observation. She could not be released on the road — the Governor's patrols were active and she would be picked up within hours and questioned, and whatever she said or didn't say, the risk was unacceptable.

"She comes with me," Valerie said.

No one said anything for a moment.

"She's a civilian," Reed said.

"She's a liability either way. With me, I can manage it. With you, she's an unknown variable in an already compromised situation." She met his eyes. "I'll handle it."

Those three words again. She heard them come out of her mouth and recognized them — the words she used when she didn't have a complete plan and needed people to stop asking questions until she did.

Reed heard it too. She could see it in the way he didn't push further.

The meeting ended. She gave final instructions — the secondary site coordinates, the contact protocol, the timeline. One by one the section leaders left, and then it was just her in the tent with the half-rolled map and the sound of the camp beginning to dismantle itself around her.

She went to find Elena.

---

Elena was where Valerie had last seen her — near the ash tree, though she had moved slightly, turning to watch the camp's sudden shift in activity with the focused attention of someone reading a situation in real time. She had her satchel on her shoulder. She had put it on, Valerie noted, at some point between Wren's arrival and now, without being told to.

Valerie stopped in front of her.

"You're coming with me," she said.

Elena looked at her. Those clear eyes, doing their cataloguing — reading Valerie's face the way she read injured hands and inflamed tissue, looking for the information that wasn't being stated.

"How far?" Elena asked.

Valerie paused.

It was not the question she had expected. She had expected negotiation, or fear, or the particular calculation of someone trying to find an angle. She had not expected the simple, practical assessment of distance. It had the quality of someone who had already decided to come and wanted only the information relevant to preparation.

"Three days," Valerie said. "Maybe four."

Elena nodded once. "I'll need to supplement my supplies before we leave. Fifteen minutes."

She walked toward the area where Mira's stores were being packed, with the purposeful efficiency of someone who had a task and was performing it. Valerie watched her go.

She had expected resistance. She had prepared, in the compressed and efficient way she prepared for things, for various forms of it — argument, fear, a bid for release. She had not prepared for this. For the way Elena moved through the situation like water moving through a space, taking its shape without losing its nature.

She turned back toward the command tent.

The map was still on the table, half-rolled. She picked it up and finished rolling it and stood for a moment in the tent that was almost empty now — the supply crates gone, the camp stools stacked by the entrance, the hooks on the tent pole bare where Aldric's secondary maps had hung.

Her father hung his maps the same way everywhere they camped. Three hooks on the left tent pole, two on the right, the primary route map always at eye level. It was so consistent that she had stopped seeing it — the way you stopped seeing the furniture in a room you lived in, the way background became invisible with repetition.

The hooks were bare.

She looked at them for longer than she meant to.

Her father was not a warm man. She had understood this early, in the gradual way children understand things about their parents — not in a single moment of revelation but in accumulated small recognitions, each one adding to a picture that she had never quite been able to step back far enough to see whole. He had taught her everything she knew that was worth knowing. He had also taught her, without meaning to, that the price of his approval was a standard she could approach but never reach, because the standard moved when she got close to it.

She had decided, at some point in her adolescence, that this was fine. That she did not need his approval to function. That the work was the work and she would do it well because it mattered, not because it would make him see her differently.

She had almost entirely believed this.

The hooks were bare and the tent was almost empty and three days east her father was in a cell and she was standing here looking at hooks.

"I'm sorry."

The voice came from the tent entrance. Elena was standing at the threshold — not inside, one hand on the tent flap, her satchel newly weighted with whatever she had taken from Mira's stores. Her face had the quality it had when she was being careful with something fragile — not pitying, not performatively sympathetic. Just present. Attending.

"I didn't mean to intrude," Elena said. "I came to tell you I was ready."

Valerie became aware that she had not rebuilt her expression. The realization arrived a beat late — she had been standing here long enough, distracted enough, that the careful neutral had lapsed, and Elena had walked in during the lapse and seen whatever was on her face instead.

She reconstructed it. Quickly, efficiently, the way she always did.

But Elena had already seen.

"I'm ready," Valerie said.

A beat. Elena looked at her — not the cataloguing look, not the clinical assessment. Something quieter than that. Something that did not require a response.

"I know," Elena said. And then, simply: "Let's go."

She stepped back from the entrance to let Valerie through.

Valerie walked out of the tent without looking back at the hooks.

---

They left as the light began to change — that particular shift in late afternoon when the gold started going out of it, leaving something thinner and more honest in its place. The rest of the Shadow Band moved northeast; Valerie and Elena moved southeast, toward Crestfall, toward the road that would take three days to walk and needed to look like it was being walked for ordinary reasons.

The forest closed around them quickly. Valerie knew this part of Blackwood — she had moved through it enough times that the path was in her body rather than her mind, the turns and the landmarks stored somewhere below conscious thought. She moved without hesitating. Elena matched her pace without being asked.

They did not speak for the first hour.

This was not unusual in Valerie's experience of moving through difficult terrain — conversation was a distraction, and distraction had costs. But the silence with Elena had a different quality than operational silence. It wasn't absence. It was the specific quality of a person who was comfortable with quiet, who was not filling it because they needed to but because they didn't need to.

Valerie was aware of Elena at the edge of her attention in a way she was not usually aware of people. Not threat-awareness — the constant background monitoring she maintained for sounds and movements that didn't belong. Something else. A presence that registered differently than the presence of Reed or Mira or any of her operatives, something that had a texture to it that she didn't have a category for.

She catalogued this and did not examine it.

The trees thickened. The last of the afternoon light filtered through in narrow shafts that touched the ground at intervals, marking time in a way that had nothing to do with clocks. Somewhere to the left, water moved over stone.

Elena said, without preamble: "The camp has been there for six weeks."

Valerie glanced at her.

"Mira mentioned the moss growth on the north post," Elena said. "And the way the cook fire ash has built up at the primary pit. Six weeks, maybe a little more." A pause. "That's longer than you'd usually stay in one place."

"Yes."

"Because of the Aldenmoor negotiation."

It was not a question. Valerie looked at her again — longer this time.

"You inferred that."

"Mira talked about supply runs that went east instead of north. East from that location puts you toward the border towns. If you were negotiating with someone significant, you'd want to be positioned to meet quickly." Elena stepped over a root without looking down. "Aldenmoor is the largest independent holdout in the eastern region. If your father was trying to build an alliance—"

"He was," Valerie said.

She had not intended to confirm it. The confirmation came out of her before she had decided to give it, which was not something that happened to her with any regularity.

Elena did not react to the confirmation with anything that looked like triumph or calculation. She simply nodded, the small nod of someone receiving information they had expected, and continued walking.

"That's why the timeline matters," she said. "If the Governor knows about the Aldenmoor contact, he'll use your father as leverage to prevent the alliance from forming. Not just as a demonstration — as a block."

"Yes," Valerie said again.

The word came out differently this time. Less controlled. She heard it and recognized the difference and did not know what to do about it, which was its own kind of answer.

Ahead of them, the path narrowed between two large stones and then opened again into a section of forest where the trees were older and the canopy higher, the undergrowth thinning to bare ground and root systems. The light here was different — dimmer but more even, the kind of light that came from above without direction.

Valerie walked into it and felt, briefly and without permission, something that was not fear and not grief and not the cold competence she had been running on since Wren rode in.

Something that was simply the weight of it, acknowledged without armoring against it, present for one unguarded moment before she put it away.

Elena walked beside her and said nothing.

The forest went on.

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