April came in with rain and the smell of wet lilac, and on the second Sunday of it Dario Vance came to dinner.
They had agreed to it in the library, three nights before, in low voices, with the door bolted and Marco in the corridor outside. It was Matteo who said it first. He had sat at the long table with the little black book of favors open at his elbow and his hands folded on the green leather, and he had looked at the page in front of him as a man looks at a map of a coast he does not mean to land on. A man who knows he is being watched, he said, is a man who is watching. If Dario Vance had been coming to the house every week since the wedding, then he would go on coming. He would be given his supper. He would be given his chair by the fire. And he would be given nothing at all.
"Pears?" Sienna had said.
"Only if it is needed." A faint smile. "I should much rather not need it. I find that I am growing fond of the word."
So on Sunday at seven she came down the great staircase in a dark blue dress with her hair pinned up and a strip of paper folded small in the palm of her glove, and found him in the hall.
He had come early. He stood on the black and white marble with his gray hat in his hand and a wooden case under his arm, a slim silver figure in a dove-colored suit, and his face lit up as she came down, with a warmth so open and so without guile that for one lurching second she thought: it cannot be. It cannot be this man.
"My dear child," said Dario. "Look at you. You have grown rosy. I said to Helena only yesterday, that girl has put on a year of color since the winter." He came forward and took her free hand in both of his, dry and light and exquisitely gentle, and bent over it. "I have brought you something. It is a very small thing and it is shamelessly self-interested. I should like to be asked again."
It was wine. Two bottles of it, lying in straw in the case, with a wax seal of dark green on each neck. A Barolo, he said, from a hillside he had known for forty years, laid down in the year Matteo was born. He had been saving it, he confessed, for an occasion, and he had come to feel that an occasion was precisely what a house ought to give itself, every now and then, for no reason at all.
"How very kind," said Sienna. "I'll have Tomas open it."
"No, no. I should like you to do it." He smiled. "I hear you are rather particular."
She took the case into the pantry herself, and shut the door, and tested both bottles, standing in the dim jar-smelling quiet with her heart going slowly in her ears. A strip. A dropper. A flick. She drew each cork with her own hands and tasted a drop on the tip of a clean spoon, and both were wine, and nothing but wine. She stood with her back against the shelves for a long time. It was a thing she had never quite learned to do: to find an innocent bottle and be sorry.
Dinner was a long affair, and it was lovely.
She would remember that afterward with a sort of bitter wonder. They sat at the end of the great table in the breakfast room, the three of them, with the candles lit and the spring dusk blue in the windows, and Mrs. Venn's roast lamb steaming on the board. Dario carved. He told a long absurd story about a tug captain who had once sailed an entire coaster up the wrong river, and Matteo laughed, a real laugh, and Sienna found herself laughing too. She forgot, for whole minutes together, what she was looking for. He was so easy, so quick, so generous with his attention. He asked her a question about the lab, and listened to the answer with his head a little on one side, and asked another, and she heard herself talking about a difficult assay as she would have talked to a colleague she liked.
It was only when the plates had been cleared and the Barolo had gone round that he said it.
"Matteo, my boy. I hear that you have been to see our friend Mr. Rusk."
The room did not change. The candles burned steadily. Matteo's hand, which had been turning the stem of his glass, went on turning it.
"You hear a good deal," he said mildly.
"I am an old man with a great many acquaintances." Dario spread his hands. "I should be ashamed not to. I heard that Pier Four has gone to a holding company with a very pretty name, and I heard from whom, and I confess that I lay awake. I wish you had come to me." His blue eyes, behind the thin gold rims, were grave and kind. "That man is a poison. He was a poison to your father, in his small way, and he will be one to you. A lease is a very long thing."
"It is ten years."
"It is a great deal more than ten years, if one has not the means of ending it." He drank. "But it is done. I shall say nothing more. I only should like you to remember, my boy, that I am here. I was your father's friend for forty years. I should be very glad to be yours."
It was beautifully said. Sienna looked down at her plate. She was holding her fork so hard that the pattern on the handle had printed itself into her fingers. A poison. He had said the word as one says it of a weed.
"You are very good," said Matteo.
"I am only old." Dario set down his glass. He turned his head, and for the first time that evening his face took on a different cast, a certain pleased and practical briskness, like a man bringing out a thing he has been waiting to show. "And that reminds me of a matter I have been meaning to raise. It is the ceremony."
Sienna did not breathe.
"The family ceremony. You have put it off, my boy, since the autumn, and I do not blame you, you are newly married and you have had a hard winter. But the old tradition is very particular, and it is very particular about the date." He drew from his pocket a small square of folded paper, brown at the edges, and smoothed it open on the cloth. It was a page from some old calendar, in a faded hand. "The feast of Saint Ilaria. It has been the Bellandi day for a hundred and forty years. And in this year, as it happens, it falls on a Sunday."
He laid his finger on the line.
"The fourteenth of September," said Dario.
The candle flame trembled in the draft from the window. Sienna lifted her eyes.
He was looking at Matteo. He did not look at her. His fine silver head was inclined, and his face was open and gentle, and there was not a single thing in it that she could have pointed to in a court of law. A man proposing a date. A friend of the house, fond of old customs, with a scrap of calendar in his hand.
But she heard, as clearly as a bell struck in an empty hall, a pink round man in a lane in the rain. There is a family ceremony in September, I believe. The fourteenth, I understand.
No date had been fixed. Matteo had put it off with polite and stubborn evasion since the first frost. The only people who could have named it were those who had been in this room, or who had stood at Dario Vance's elbow.
"I have not yet agreed to a date," said Matteo, evenly.
"Of course not. I would not presume." Dario folded the paper. "I merely mention it as the calendar fixes it. The arrangements are so many. One must begin in good time." His eyes came to Sienna's face then, warm and shining. "And I should so like to see you in the old ivory, my dear. There is a gown. It has been in the cedar room since the wedding of the first Matteo's bride, and it would suit you down to the ground."
"How kind," said Sienna.
She did not know how she said it. It came out clear, and light, and pleasant, in a voice that might have belonged to someone else. Under the table her knee had begun, very slightly, to shake. And then something warm and steady closed over it, a hand, quiet and heavy, resting on her knee beneath the cloth without any weight of demand. It was only there. It did not move. It said, as plainly as if he had spoken aloud, I am here.
She did not look round. She felt the tremor go out of her knee under the pressure of it, slowly, like the shuddering of a horse that has been spoken to.
"We shall think about it," said Matteo. His voice was even. "After the summer."
"Quite right, quite right." Dario beamed. "I am a great believer in the summer."
Marco came in at a quarter to ten. He did not announce himself. He appeared in the arch of the breakfast room with his hat in his hand, and said, "Mr. Bellandi, a word, sir. It is the telephone," in a voice so level that nobody could have said what was in it. Matteo rose at once. He laid his napkin by his plate. His eyes met Sienna's across the candles for no longer than a breath, and she knew that he was leaving her in the room on purpose, and that he did not like it.
"Forgive me," he said to Dario. "A matter on the quay."
"On a Sunday," said Dario, with a sigh. "It never stops."
The door closed.
"Shall we sit by the fire?" said Dario. "I find that these long evenings call for a fire."
The small drawing room on the garden side was warm and dim and smelled of woodsmoke. A single lamp burned on a table by the window. The fire had been banked to a deep red glow, and on the mantelpiece, between two silver candlesticks, a little pine boat with a patched brown sail rode at anchor in the half light. Dario went to it at once. He stood with his hands clasped behind him and looked at it for a long time with his head bent.
"Gannet," he said, softly. "Your father made it, I believe. He has the most delicate hand." He did not turn. "I always think that one can tell a great deal about a household by what it keeps on its mantelpiece. In the old days it was a clock. Aurelio kept a clock. He kept a very great many things."
Sienna sat down in the green armchair. She folded her hands in her lap. She had a paper strip folded in her glove, and she did not touch it. There was nothing in this room to test.
"May I tell you something, my dear?" said Dario. He came away from the fire and lowered himself into the chair opposite, slowly, with the old courtly care. "I have known Matteo since before he could walk. I held him at his christening. I stood at the grave of his mother, in a hard winter, with my hand on his shoulder, because there was no one else who would. I have never in my life seen him as he has been since the autumn."
"How has he been?"
"Alive." The pale eyes were very bright. "He has been alive. I did not think that I should live to see it. I am so very glad that it was you."
It was the kindest thing anyone had said to her in a month. It went into her like warmth into stone, and in the very center of it, quite coldly, a small voice said: that is how it is done.
"Thank you," she said.
"Are you happy?"
"Yes."
"Truly?"
"Truly."
"Good." He patted the arm of the chair, twice, gently. "I only ask because I should so much like you to stay so." A small pause. He looked into the fire. "Matteo is a man who keeps things, you know."
She did not move.
"His father was the same. It is a family trait. They cannot let go of a thing once it has come into their hands. It makes them the most faithful men in the world, and, I fear, now and then, a little difficult to be kept by." He sighed. He spoke softly and without any weight, as a man remarks upon the weather, and his face in the red light was gentle and a little sad. "I only hope he keeps you better than he kept the others."
The fire popped. A log shifted in the grate and sent up a thin gold spiral of sparks.
Sienna sat very still.
It was not the words. It was the tone, the faint tender wistful regret of it, like a hand laid lightly on her sleeve. She felt it go through her skin and into the middle of her. The others. She had heard it in a dozen different shapes in her head before the thought had finished. A woman in a yellow dress. A dozen faces in a black book. A man who could not let go of a thing once it came into his hands, and a drawer in a study that she had never opened.
"The others," she said. Her voice was very quiet.
Dario started. It was a good start, quick and genuine, and the color rose in his cheeks. "Oh, my dear." He lifted both hands. "Oh, forgive me. What a stupid, stupid old man. I did not mean it as it sounded. I only meant the debts."
"The debts."
"The accounts. The pensions." He gestured vaguely. "Aurelio kept so many, you see. Men who owed him, and men to whom he owed. The widows' fund, for a start. He held on to every one of them for twenty years, and never once let a man off, and Matteo has the same tenderness. He cannot bear to close a book." A deprecating little laugh. "I only meant that he is faithful to a fault. I have put it clumsily. I am too old to be trusted with a sentence."
It was a very good answer. It was a smooth, plausible, rounded answer, and she had spent six years learning to distrust anything that fit. He looked at her with such distress, and such transparent contrition, that anyone else in the world would have taken his hand and told him that it did not matter.
"Of course," said Sienna. "I understand."
"You are very kind." He took her hand and pressed it. "I should never forgive myself if I had frightened you. And you have written nothing in the little book, I suppose? I should so like to know that it has a use."
"Not yet."
"Ah. Well. There is no hurry." The pale eyes twinkled. "I find that people write best when there is something they cannot say."
He rose. He took his hat from the table and bent to kiss her cheek, dry and light and smelling of lavender water, and the door opened, and Matteo came in with Marco at his shoulder and the tension of the corridor still in the line of his jaw.
"Dario," he said. "Your car is at the door."
"So it is. How the evening has flown." He pressed Matteo's arm. "A lovely dinner, my boy. A very lovely dinner. I shall not wait for the second bottle."
He went out, a slim silver figure in the lamplit hall, with the door held for him by Mrs. Venn. The engine of his car turned over, quiet and expensive, and its lamps swept across the drawing room ceiling and were gone.
The house was very quiet.
"What did he say to you?" said Matteo.
It was asked gently. He had crossed the room and stood beside her chair, with his hand resting on the back of it, and he was looking down at the fire. She did not at once answer. She was aware, with a distinct and chilly clarity, of a small decision being made somewhere inside her, without her consent, as one's hand goes out to catch a falling glass.
She told him.
She told him that Dario had spoken of the fire, and of the boat, and of how alive Matteo had been since the autumn. She told him that Dario had asked if she was happy, and that she had said yes. She told him that he had asked after the notebook and that he had said people wrote best when there was something they could not say. She told him all of it in order, in a quiet voice, with her eyes on the flames.
She did not tell him about the others.
She did not know why. She told herself that it was the first time in four months that she had withheld a thing that someone else had said to her, and that she did not like it. She told herself that if it was a barb, it was meant to draw blood, and she would not carry it to him in her hands. She told herself that Dario had apologized, and given a reason, and that it was sensible and she had no right to a suspicion. And under all of that, small and cold and very clear, there was another thing. She wanted to see what he would say if she gave him the word keeps and nothing else.
"He said the family keeps things," said Sienna. "That you and your father were alike."
He was still. She felt it through the arm of the chair, as one feels a train in the rails before it comes. It lasted one half second. Then his hand lifted from the back of her chair and rested, lightly, on her shoulder.
"Did he," said Matteo.
He said no more. She waited. She heard in the silence the small tick of the fire and the great clock in the hall, and she saw, as clearly as she had ever seen anything, that something had passed behind his face and been put away. It was not surprise. It was recognition. It was the look of a man who has been handed a coin he knows, and is deciding whether to tell the person who gave it to him where it was minted.
He knew what Dario had been doing. She understood that, suddenly. He had stood in the corridor with Marco, listening to a telephone, and he had known as well as she did that a private fire and a quiet word were a thing that a clever man arranged on purpose. He knew that she was being steered. And he had walked back into the room and asked what Dario had said, and then listened to her answer, and withheld what he thought.
"What is it?" she said.
"Nothing."
"Matteo."
"I think that he wants you to ask me something," said Matteo, slowly. His voice was very low and even. "I think he has been wishing it for a long time. I do not yet know what. I should rather not give him the pleasure of finding out by seeing you do it."
It was half the truth, and she knew it, and he knew she knew it. They looked at each other in the firelight across a yard of air. She could see the whole of what he was not saying standing in his eyes like a figure behind glass. He was afraid. He was afraid that if he told her what he thought Dario meant by it, he would have to tell her the rest. And she, God help her, had the very same fear.
She put her hand over his on her shoulder.
"Then we won't," said Sienna.
"No."
"Not tonight."
"Not tonight," he agreed. He bent and kissed the top of her head, very gently, and she felt him let out a long slow breath against her hair. It was the breath of a man who has stepped back from a drop and is not sure whether he is relieved.
They sat on in the dim warm room with the fire dying and the little boat riding on the mantelpiece above them. She thought: there are two of us now. There are two of us in this house keeping something back, and each of us knows it, and each of us is being kind. It occurred to her, with a slow sort of horror, that it was very nearly a form of love.
Marco was waiting in the hall.
He stood at the foot of the stairs in his dark coat, with his hat turned over in his big hands, and when they came out of the drawing room he did not speak at once. He looked at Matteo. Something passed between the two men, brief and eloquent, as it had passed between them for twenty-two years. Then he said, in a voice she had to strain to hear, "Gavin has had a word from the exchange, sir. A man he knows at the telephone company. He wished it said tonight."
"Go on."
"There was a call from this house at nine forty-one." He drew a breath. "Not from the library, nor the study. From the servants' line, in the passage behind the kitchen. It was very short. Eleven seconds. A message, he thinks, spoken or sent in some kind of code. It went to a number in Carrow, a boarding house on Sandpiper Row."
Sienna's stomach turned over very slowly.
"Sandpiper Row," said Matteo.
"Mr. Rusk's old address, sir. Let to a family from the north, since last year. But the telephone was never taken out." Marco's broad face was still. "Nine forty-one. You were at the telephone yourself, sir, in the study, with me. Miss Hale was in the drawing room with Mr. Vance."
The clock struck the quarter in the hall. Nobody spoke.
Mrs. Venn had been in the kitchen. Tomas had been in the kitchen. The young man in the white jacket, the girl who did the fires, the boy who carried the coal. A household of nine, who had eaten off the same scrubbed table since before Sienna came, and every one of whom she had tested a thousand cups for.
"Someone in this house," said Matteo, very softly, "has a hand on the telephone, and a voice for Rusk."
"Yes, sir."
"While Dario sat in my drawing room."
"Yes, sir." Marco turned his hat once in his hands. "I would not like to say what that means."
"No," said Matteo. "Nor would I."
They stood in the great black and white hall in the failing lamplight. Beyond the tall doors the rain had begun again, soft and steady on the gravel. She felt his hand find hers, and close, and she did not take it away. She stood with her fingers laced through his, and listened to the water running in the gutters, and it seemed to her that the house itself had become a very large room in which a small sound had been made, once, in the dark, and that every one of them was waiting, without breathing, for it to be made again.
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April came in with rain and the smell of wet lilac, and on the second Sunday of it Dario Vance came to dinner.
They had agreed to it in the library, three nights before, in low voices, with the door bolted and Marco in the corridor outside. It was Matteo who said it first. He had sat at the long table with the little black book of favors open at his elbow and his hands folded on the green leather, and he had looked at the page in front of him as a man looks at a map of a coast he does not mean to land on. A man who knows he is being watched, he said, is a man who is watching. If Dario Vance had been coming to the house every week since the wedding, then he would go on coming. He would be given his supper. He would be given his chair by the fire. And he would be given nothing at all.
"Pears?" Sienna had said.
"Only if it is needed." A faint smile. "I should much rather not need it. I find that I am growing fond of the word."
So on Sunday at seven she came down the great staircase in a dark blue dress with her hair pinned up and a strip of paper folded small in the palm of her glove, and found him in the hall.
He had come early. He stood on the black and white marble with his gray hat in his hand and a wooden case under his arm, a slim silver figure in a dove-colored suit, and his face lit up as she came down, with a warmth so open and so without guile that for one lurching second she thought: it cannot be. It cannot be this man.
"My dear child," said Dario. "Look at you. You have grown rosy. I said to Helena only yesterday, that girl has put on a year of color since the winter." He came forward and took her free hand in both of his, dry and light and exquisitely gentle, and bent over it. "I have brought you something. It is a very small thing and it is shamelessly self-interested. I should like to be asked again."
It was wine. Two bottles of it, lying in straw in the case, with a wax seal of dark green on each neck. A Barolo, he said, from a hillside he had known for forty years, laid down in the year Matteo was born. He had been saving it, he confessed, for an occasion, and he had come to feel that an occasion was precisely what a house ought to give itself, every now and then, for no reason at all.
"How very kind," said Sienna. "I'll have Tomas open it."
"No, no. I should like you to do it." He smiled. "I hear you are rather particular."
She took the case into the pantry herself, and shut the door, and tested both bottles, standing in the dim jar-smelling quiet with her heart going slowly in her ears. A strip. A dropper. A flick. She drew each cork with her own hands and tasted a drop on the tip of a clean spoon, and both were wine, and nothing but wine. She stood with her back against the shelves for a long time. It was a thing she had never quite learned to do: to find an innocent bottle and be sorry.
Dinner was a long affair, and it was lovely.
She would remember that afterward with a sort of bitter wonder. They sat at the end of the great table in the breakfast room, the three of them, with the candles lit and the spring dusk blue in the windows, and Mrs. Venn's roast lamb steaming on the board. Dario carved. He told a long absurd story about a tug captain who had once sailed an entire coaster up the wrong river, and Matteo laughed, a real laugh, and Sienna found herself laughing too. She forgot, for whole minutes together, what she was looking for. He was so easy, so quick, so generous with his attention. He asked her a question about the lab, and listened to the answer with his head a little on one side, and asked another, and she heard herself talking about a difficult assay as she would have talked to a colleague she liked.
It was only when the plates had been cleared and the Barolo had gone round that he said it.
"Matteo, my boy. I hear that you have been to see our friend Mr. Rusk."
The room did not change. The candles burned steadily. Matteo's hand, which had been turning the stem of his glass, went on turning it.
"You hear a good deal," he said mildly.
"I am an old man with a great many acquaintances." Dario spread his hands. "I should be ashamed not to. I heard that Pier Four has gone to a holding company with a very pretty name, and I heard from whom, and I confess that I lay awake. I wish you had come to me." His blue eyes, behind the thin gold rims, were grave and kind. "That man is a poison. He was a poison to your father, in his small way, and he will be one to you. A lease is a very long thing."
"It is ten years."
"It is a great deal more than ten years, if one has not the means of ending it." He drank. "But it is done. I shall say nothing more. I only should like you to remember, my boy, that I am here. I was your father's friend for forty years. I should be very glad to be yours."
It was beautifully said. Sienna looked down at her plate. She was holding her fork so hard that the pattern on the handle had printed itself into her fingers. A poison. He had said the word as one says it of a weed.
"You are very good," said Matteo.
"I am only old." Dario set down his glass. He turned his head, and for the first time that evening his face took on a different cast, a certain pleased and practical briskness, like a man bringing out a thing he has been waiting to show. "And that reminds me of a matter I have been meaning to raise. It is the ceremony."
Sienna did not breathe.
"The family ceremony. You have put it off, my boy, since the autumn, and I do not blame you, you are newly married and you have had a hard winter. But the old tradition is very particular, and it is very particular about the date." He drew from his pocket a small square of folded paper, brown at the edges, and smoothed it open on the cloth. It was a page from some old calendar, in a faded hand. "The feast of Saint Ilaria. It has been the Bellandi day for a hundred and forty years. And in this year, as it happens, it falls on a Sunday."
He laid his finger on the line.
"The fourteenth of September," said Dario.
The candle flame trembled in the draft from the window. Sienna lifted her eyes.
He was looking at Matteo. He did not look at her. His fine silver head was inclined, and his face was open and gentle, and there was not a single thing in it that she could have pointed to in a court of law. A man proposing a date. A friend of the house, fond of old customs, with a scrap of calendar in his hand.
But she heard, as clearly as a bell struck in an empty hall, a pink round man in a lane in the rain. There is a family ceremony in September, I believe. The fourteenth, I understand.
No date had been fixed. Matteo had put it off with polite and stubborn evasion since the first frost. The only people who could have named it were those who had been in this room, or who had stood at Dario Vance's elbow.
"I have not yet agreed to a date," said Matteo, evenly.
"Of course not. I would not presume." Dario folded the paper. "I merely mention it as the calendar fixes it. The arrangements are so many. One must begin in good time." His eyes came to Sienna's face then, warm and shining. "And I should so like to see you in the old ivory, my dear. There is a gown. It has been in the cedar room since the wedding of the first Matteo's bride, and it would suit you down to the ground."
"How kind," said Sienna.
She did not know how she said it. It came out clear, and light, and pleasant, in a voice that might have belonged to someone else. Under the table her knee had begun, very slightly, to shake. And then something warm and steady closed over it, a hand, quiet and heavy, resting on her knee beneath the cloth without any weight of demand. It was only there. It did not move. It said, as plainly as if he had spoken aloud, I am here.
She did not look round. She felt the tremor go out of her knee under the pressure of it, slowly, like the shuddering of a horse that has been spoken to.
"We shall think about it," said Matteo. His voice was even. "After the summer."
"Quite right, quite right." Dario beamed. "I am a great believer in the summer."
Marco came in at a quarter to ten. He did not announce himself. He appeared in the arch of the breakfast room with his hat in his hand, and said, "Mr. Bellandi, a word, sir. It is the telephone," in a voice so level that nobody could have said what was in it. Matteo rose at once. He laid his napkin by his plate. His eyes met Sienna's across the candles for no longer than a breath, and she knew that he was leaving her in the room on purpose, and that he did not like it.
"Forgive me," he said to Dario. "A matter on the quay."
"On a Sunday," said Dario, with a sigh. "It never stops."
The door closed.
"Shall we sit by the fire?" said Dario. "I find that these long evenings call for a fire."
The small drawing room on the garden side was warm and dim and smelled of woodsmoke. A single lamp burned on a table by the window. The fire had been banked to a deep red glow, and on the mantelpiece, between two silver candlesticks, a little pine boat with a patched brown sail rode at anchor in the half light. Dario went to it at once. He stood with his hands clasped behind him and looked at it for a long time with his head bent.
"Gannet," he said, softly. "Your father made it, I believe. He has the most delicate hand." He did not turn. "I always think that one can tell a great deal about a household by what it keeps on its mantelpiece. In the old days it was a clock. Aurelio kept a clock. He kept a very great many things."
Sienna sat down in the green armchair. She folded her hands in her lap. She had a paper strip folded in her glove, and she did not touch it. There was nothing in this room to test.
"May I tell you something, my dear?" said Dario. He came away from the fire and lowered himself into the chair opposite, slowly, with the old courtly care. "I have known Matteo since before he could walk. I held him at his christening. I stood at the grave of his mother, in a hard winter, with my hand on his shoulder, because there was no one else who would. I have never in my life seen him as he has been since the autumn."
"How has he been?"
"Alive." The pale eyes were very bright. "He has been alive. I did not think that I should live to see it. I am so very glad that it was you."
It was the kindest thing anyone had said to her in a month. It went into her like warmth into stone, and in the very center of it, quite coldly, a small voice said: that is how it is done.
"Thank you," she said.
"Are you happy?"
"Yes."
"Truly?"
"Truly."
"Good." He patted the arm of the chair, twice, gently. "I only ask because I should so much like you to stay so." A small pause. He looked into the fire. "Matteo is a man who keeps things, you know."
She did not move.
"His father was the same. It is a family trait. They cannot let go of a thing once it has come into their hands. It makes them the most faithful men in the world, and, I fear, now and then, a little difficult to be kept by." He sighed. He spoke softly and without any weight, as a man remarks upon the weather, and his face in the red light was gentle and a little sad. "I only hope he keeps you better than he kept the others."
The fire popped. A log shifted in the grate and sent up a thin gold spiral of sparks.
Sienna sat very still.
It was not the words. It was the tone, the faint tender wistful regret of it, like a hand laid lightly on her sleeve. She felt it go through her skin and into the middle of her. The others. She had heard it in a dozen different shapes in her head before the thought had finished. A woman in a yellow dress. A dozen faces in a black book. A man who could not let go of a thing once it came into his hands, and a drawer in a study that she had never opened.
"The others," she said. Her voice was very quiet.
Dario started. It was a good start, quick and genuine, and the color rose in his cheeks. "Oh, my dear." He lifted both hands. "Oh, forgive me. What a stupid, stupid old man. I did not mean it as it sounded. I only meant the debts."
"The debts."
"The accounts. The pensions." He gestured vaguely. "Aurelio kept so many, you see. Men who owed him, and men to whom he owed. The widows' fund, for a start. He held on to every one of them for twenty years, and never once let a man off, and Matteo has the same tenderness. He cannot bear to close a book." A deprecating little laugh. "I only meant that he is faithful to a fault. I have put it clumsily. I am too old to be trusted with a sentence."
It was a very good answer. It was a smooth, plausible, rounded answer, and she had spent six years learning to distrust anything that fit. He looked at her with such distress, and such transparent contrition, that anyone else in the world would have taken his hand and told him that it did not matter.
"Of course," said Sienna. "I understand."
"You are very kind." He took her hand and pressed it. "I should never forgive myself if I had frightened you. And you have written nothing in the little book, I suppose? I should so like to know that it has a use."
"Not yet."
"Ah. Well. There is no hurry." The pale eyes twinkled. "I find that people write best when there is something they cannot say."
He rose. He took his hat from the table and bent to kiss her cheek, dry and light and smelling of lavender water, and the door opened, and Matteo came in with Marco at his shoulder and the tension of the corridor still in the line of his jaw.
"Dario," he said. "Your car is at the door."
"So it is. How the evening has flown." He pressed Matteo's arm. "A lovely dinner, my boy. A very lovely dinner. I shall not wait for the second bottle."
He went out, a slim silver figure in the lamplit hall, with the door held for him by Mrs. Venn. The engine of his car turned over, quiet and expensive, and its lamps swept across the drawing room ceiling and were gone.
The house was very quiet.
"What did he say to you?" said Matteo.
It was asked gently. He had crossed the room and stood beside her chair, with his hand resting on the back of it, and he was looking down at the fire. She did not at once answer. She was aware, with a distinct and chilly clarity, of a small decision being made somewhere inside her, without her consent, as one's hand goes out to catch a falling glass.
She told him.
She told him that Dario had spoken of the fire, and of the boat, and of how alive Matteo had been since the autumn. She told him that Dario had asked if she was happy, and that she had said yes. She told him that he had asked after the notebook and that he had said people wrote best when there was something they could not say. She told him all of it in order, in a quiet voice, with her eyes on the flames.
She did not tell him about the others.
She did not know why. She told herself that it was the first time in four months that she had withheld a thing that someone else had said to her, and that she did not like it. She told herself that if it was a barb, it was meant to draw blood, and she would not carry it to him in her hands. She told herself that Dario had apologized, and given a reason, and that it was sensible and she had no right to a suspicion. And under all of that, small and cold and very clear, there was another thing. She wanted to see what he would say if she gave him the word keeps and nothing else.
"He said the family keeps things," said Sienna. "That you and your father were alike."
He was still. She felt it through the arm of the chair, as one feels a train in the rails before it comes. It lasted one half second. Then his hand lifted from the back of her chair and rested, lightly, on her shoulder.
"Did he," said Matteo.
He said no more. She waited. She heard in the silence the small tick of the fire and the great clock in the hall, and she saw, as clearly as she had ever seen anything, that something had passed behind his face and been put away. It was not surprise. It was recognition. It was the look of a man who has been handed a coin he knows, and is deciding whether to tell the person who gave it to him where it was minted.
He knew what Dario had been doing. She understood that, suddenly. He had stood in the corridor with Marco, listening to a telephone, and he had known as well as she did that a private fire and a quiet word were a thing that a clever man arranged on purpose. He knew that she was being steered. And he had walked back into the room and asked what Dario had said, and then listened to her answer, and withheld what he thought.
"What is it?" she said.
"Nothing."
"Matteo."
"I think that he wants you to ask me something," said Matteo, slowly. His voice was very low and even. "I think he has been wishing it for a long time. I do not yet know what. I should rather not give him the pleasure of finding out by seeing you do it."
It was half the truth, and she knew it, and he knew she knew it. They looked at each other in the firelight across a yard of air. She could see the whole of what he was not saying standing in his eyes like a figure behind glass. He was afraid. He was afraid that if he told her what he thought Dario meant by it, he would have to tell her the rest. And she, God help her, had the very same fear.
She put her hand over his on her shoulder.
"Then we won't," said Sienna.
"No."
"Not tonight."
"Not tonight," he agreed. He bent and kissed the top of her head, very gently, and she felt him let out a long slow breath against her hair. It was the breath of a man who has stepped back from a drop and is not sure whether he is relieved.
They sat on in the dim warm room with the fire dying and the little boat riding on the mantelpiece above them. She thought: there are two of us now. There are two of us in this house keeping something back, and each of us knows it, and each of us is being kind. It occurred to her, with a slow sort of horror, that it was very nearly a form of love.
Marco was waiting in the hall.
He stood at the foot of the stairs in his dark coat, with his hat turned over in his big hands, and when they came out of the drawing room he did not speak at once. He looked at Matteo. Something passed between the two men, brief and eloquent, as it had passed between them for twenty-two years. Then he said, in a voice she had to strain to hear, "Gavin has had a word from the exchange, sir. A man he knows at the telephone company. He wished it said tonight."
"Go on."
"There was a call from this house at nine forty-one." He drew a breath. "Not from the library, nor the study. From the servants' line, in the passage behind the kitchen. It was very short. Eleven seconds. A message, he thinks, spoken or sent in some kind of code. It went to a number in Carrow, a boarding house on Sandpiper Row."
Sienna's stomach turned over very slowly.
"Sandpiper Row," said Matteo.
"Mr. Rusk's old address, sir. Let to a family from the north, since last year. But the telephone was never taken out." Marco's broad face was still. "Nine forty-one. You were at the telephone yourself, sir, in the study, with me. Miss Hale was in the drawing room with Mr. Vance."
The clock struck the quarter in the hall. Nobody spoke.
Mrs. Venn had been in the kitchen. Tomas had been in the kitchen. The young man in the white jacket, the girl who did the fires, the boy who carried the coal. A household of nine, who had eaten off the same scrubbed table since before Sienna came, and every one of whom she had tested a thousand cups for.
"Someone in this house," said Matteo, very softly, "has a hand on the telephone, and a voice for Rusk."
"Yes, sir."
"While Dario sat in my drawing room."
"Yes, sir." Marco turned his hat once in his hands. "I would not like to say what that means."
"No," said Matteo. "Nor would I."
They stood in the great black and white hall in the failing lamplight. Beyond the tall doors the rain had begun again, soft and steady on the gravel. She felt his hand find hers, and close, and she did not take it away. She stood with her fingers laced through his, and listened to the water running in the gutters, and it seemed to her that the house itself had become a very large room in which a small sound had been made, once, in the dark, and that every one of them was waiting, without breathing, for it to be made again.
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