Chapter 08

Chapter 8: The Hoshimachi Festival

Chapter 8: The Hoshimachi Festival

The lanterns were already lit when they arrived.

Hoshimachi Lane in summer was a different city — not the efficient, forward-moving version that Rina navigated every day, but something older and more permissive, a place that remembered how to slow down. Paper lanterns hung from the eaves of every building, not the dramatic kind from postcards but the ordinary seasonal kind: pale yellow, slightly different sizes, the kind that had been made by hand somewhere and hung by someone who had done it every summer for twenty years.

Mei had been asking Rina to come to the Hoshimachi summer festival for three years. Rina had always had a reason not to. This year she had said yes, and the reason she had said yes was standing beside her now, consulting the latest map fragment with the same focused expression he brought to mechanical problems.

"The fourth symbol," he said. "There's a marker post somewhere in this district. Old stone, probably incorporated into a building wall or a gate. The notation indicates it predates the current street layout."

"So we're looking for old stone in a street of old buildings."

"We're looking for a specific configuration. A gate post with the Amahara survey mark — a small incised circle with a horizontal line. It won't be prominently placed."

She looked at the street. It was warm — the particular warm of a summer evening that had given everything its best quality of light and sound. Music from somewhere, someone playing something with strings. The smell of festival food: grilled things, sweet things, the particular saltiness of festival vendors who had been here every summer since before she was born.

Mei appeared at her elbow.

"You brought the quiet boy," she said, at a volume that was technically a whisper.

"He has a name."

"I know his name. I know his grades, his seat in class, and that he left the spring school trip three hours early because he had somewhere to be." Mei looked at Toma with the evaluating expression she applied to everything she found interesting. "He's taller than I expected."

"Mei."

"I'm just observing. I'm a naturally observant person." She shifted her observation to Rina. "You're comfortable with him."

"We work well together."

"You're comfortable with him," Mei repeated, in the tone of someone who has made a distinction and is declining to let it be ignored. "That's different from working well together. You're comfortable in the way of someone who has stopped being careful."

Rina looked at her. Mei looked back.

"I'm going to get food," Mei said pleasantly. "Carry on."

She disappeared into the festival crowd.

Toma had not appeared to hear any of this. He was examining the gate of the nearest building — an old residential structure that had been there long enough to acquire character in its stonework. His attention was on the post at the gate's left side.

"Here," he said.

She crossed to him. In the stone of the post, near the base, almost hidden by the lamp fixture that had been added to the post at some point: a small incised circle with a horizontal line. Exactly as he had described. Barely visible unless you were looking for it.

Below the mark, in the same cramped notation: a date, a name, and an arrow. The name was a street that no longer existed — she recognized the pattern from the Rain Archive documents, a street in a district that had been cleared fifteen years ago.

The fourth stop.

She photographed it and straightened up, and found that Toma was very close — they had both been crouching to see the mark clearly and had risen at the same moment and the festival crowd had pressed inward from behind her in the way festival crowds did, and the result was proximity she had not anticipated.

He didn't step back.

She didn't step back.

"Found it," she said. Unnecessarily.

"Yes," he said.

He was looking at her rather than the mark. She was aware of the lantern light — the pale yellow of it, the slight warmth it added to everything it touched. She was aware of his face at close range, which was an experience she had been accumulating in small doses and had not yet resolved into a coherent response. She knew the line of his jaw by now, the particular set of his expression when he was managing something. She knew the version of neutral that meant he was thinking and the version that meant he was feeling something he had not yet decided about.

This was the second version.

"There's a stall on the corner," she said. "The one with the food. We should — it's the festival."

"Yes," he said.

They moved toward the stall. The crowd absorbed them and they walked through it with the comfortable navigation of two people who had learned each other's spatial habits — she moved left when he moved right, she slowed when he slowed, they arrived at the stall without incident or collision.

She looked at the display. Small crafted items alongside the food: commemorative pieces, seasonal things. A tray of keychains made in the style of old transit tokens, shaped like the magnetic-stripe cards of the discontinued lines.

She picked one up.

It was the right size for a key or a bag, the right weight — brass, she thought, or something like it. The face of it had the line designation of the old Seika coastal route embossed in it. The first stop.

She turned it over. On the back: the simple designation *SLR*, and a year.

She held it for a long moment.

She felt, rather than saw, Toma beside her at the stall. She felt the slight shift of his attention from the crowd to her hands.

Then she felt him reach past her — not urgently, not dramatically, just with the quiet certainty of someone who has already made the decision by the time the movement begins — and hand the vendor coins before she had located her own wallet.

She looked at him.

He was looking at the vendor. Completing the transaction. Exchanging the coins for the keychain, which he then held out to her.

"For the map," he said. "You document things."

She looked at the keychain in his hand. She looked at his face. His ears were very slightly — she was almost certain she was not imagining this — pink.

"That's your reason," she said.

"Yes."

She took the keychain. Their fingers didn't quite touch.

"Thank you," she said.

He turned away to look at the festival. She turned the keychain over in her fingers and looked at the old line designation and thought: this is not for the map. And he knows I know that. And he said it anyway because it was the only container available for what he actually meant.

Mei reappeared with two skewers of something grilled and an expression of studied nonchalance.

She handed Rina a skewer. She looked at the keychain in Rina's hand. She looked at Toma, who was reading the menu board with great apparent interest. She looked at Rina again.

She said nothing. But her expression said everything that needed saying, and Rina looked at her and found she could not produce the version of contradiction she had been producing for weeks.

She couldn't, because it wasn't true anymore.

She ate her festival food and held the keychain and walked through Hoshimachi Lane in the lantern light, and she thought: we are going to find the next stop, and the next, and the one after that, and somewhere in the finding of them something that is already happening is going to become something I have to name.

She thought: I think I already know what it's called.

She thought: I think I've known for several weeks.

She looked at Toma, who was standing a few feet away reading the text on a historical marker someone had placed on one of the old buildings — genuinely reading it, genuinely interested, because he was the kind of person who read things when they were there to be read.

She thought: I like him.

Not the careful, managed version of noticing. Not the observation filed under irrelevant. Just: I like him. I like who he is. I like the way he is in the world.

I like his ears when they're pink.

She closed her fingers around the keychain.

She liked Toma Kanzaki.

She was, she decided, going to stop pretending otherwise.

At least to herself.

Mei appeared at her side again and said, very quietly: "He's looking at you again."

Rina didn't look. "I know," she said.

Mei was quiet for a moment. Then: "Good."

The lanterns swung gently in the summer evening air. The festival moved around them. Somewhere, the strings played on.

Rina kept the keychain in her hand for the rest of the night.

She did not put it in her bag. She held it, the weight of it, the small brass record of a line that no longer ran — made by someone who believed that the things that had stopped should still be remembered.

She thought: yes.

She thought: I understand that now.

On the train home, Toma sat beside her again. By now this was simply what they did — the window seat was hers, the aisle seat was his, the arrangement had never been discussed and had simply become true through repetition. She had the keychain in her jacket pocket, her fingers occasionally finding it without deciding to.

She had told herself, walking back from the festival through the warm evening, that she was going to stop managing this. That the thing happening was happening and the managing of it was more effort than the thing itself. That Rina Sayo, who was good at most things she applied herself to, could also be good at this — at recognizing what was true and letting it be true without running a risk calculation on it.

She thought she could probably manage that.

The train moved. The city moved past in the dark outside the window.

"There's a connection I missed," Toma said, not looking up from his phone. "Between Hoshimachi Lane and the development documents in Rain Archive. The lane is designated for 'cultural district renewal' in one of the Mirai Axis plans. There's a timeline."

"When?"

"The documents are dated six years from now. But plans like this usually move earlier than projected." He paused. "The people who live there — the woman at the lantern stall, the old man in the building with the survey marker. They would be displaced."

She thought about the woman at the lantern stall. About the man who had placed the lanterns on the eaves of his building, every summer for twenty years.

"The festival would stop," she said.

"The festival would be — absorbed. Branded. Turned into something that could be experienced without the people who made it." He was quiet for a moment. "That's the pattern. Not erasure. Replacement. The shell of the thing without the content."

She thought about that. About the particular cruelty of not destroying things but instead keeping the surface and removing the substance. The city would still have a Hoshimachi Lane, she thought. It would just no longer be the place where people lived and hung lanterns and ran festival stalls every summer. It would be a place where tourists came to experience the aesthetic of a community that no longer existed.

"Your father understood this," she said.

"Yes. That's what he was documenting. Not just the physical places but the — meaning of them. The communities. The lives." He put his phone away. "You can't photograph that. You can only testify that it existed."

She looked at the window, at her own reflection and the city behind it.

"Is that what the map is? Testimony?"

"I think so. Evidence, yes. But also — testimony. A man saying: I was there, I saw this, it was real, it was worth being real."

She thought about the sentence at the top of the map. If the city forgets the way home, start from the first stop. Not instructions, she realized. Not a navigation tool. A plea. A record of the belief that the things being forgotten were worth finding.

That was worth more than evidence. Evidence was for courts and records. This was for something else — for whoever followed the map and understood, at the end of it, not just what had been hidden but why the hiding had been necessary.

"He was trying to make someone care," she said.

"Yes."

"He succeeded. With us."

A long pause. The train moved. The city outside was getting darker as they moved away from the center.

"Yes," Toma said. And then, quietly, without looking at her: "Thank you."

She didn't ask for what. She understood it was for following the map. For taking it seriously. For caring about what was in it — not just as evidence, but as the record of someone's effort to make sure the truth outlived the convenient version.

"Of course," she said.

Simple. True.

She looked out the window at her city. The ordinary version of it, the one that didn't know about the archive in the basement or the survey marks in the gate posts or the drainage changes in the harbor. The version that moved forward without looking at what it had left behind.

She was going to be the kind of person who looked.

She had the keychain in her pocket. She had three stops left to find. She had a partner who thanked her quietly and meant it, who built things before the conversations that would explain them, who was warm and steady and had pink ears at the festival stall.

She had, she thought, been given quite a lot this autumn.

She intended to keep all of it.

At her stop she stood, and this time he stood with her, and they navigated the aisle together, and on the platform in the warm summer night she turned to face him.

"Three more," she said.

"Three more," he agreed.

She almost said something else. The something else was present, ready, had been ready for a while. She looked at him in the platform light — the particular version of him that was most true, she had come to think, in moments like this when the day was ending and nothing was required of either of them — and she thought: I could say it now. I could say any of the things I've been filing away.

She didn't.

Not yet. She would know when.

"Good night," she said.

"Good night."

She walked to the exit. At the top of the stairs she looked back.

He was still on the platform, watching her go.

He raised one hand. Brief. Not a wave. Just: I see you.

She raised hers back.

Then she went home through the warm summer night with a keychain in her pocket and three stops left and the certain, quiet knowledge that she was, in the most important of ways, no longer alone in the city she was learning to read.

That was worth more than she had words for yet.

She was going to find the words.

She had three more Saturdays.

The night was warm enough to walk slowly. She did.

She thought about testimony. About the difference between evidence and witness. A court wanted evidence — documents, data, the traceable record. But a witness said something different. A witness said: I was there. I saw the person's face. I know what it meant to be in that place at that time.

Akio Kanzaki had tried to be both. He had built the evidence system and he had — in the map itself, in the way it was constructed, in the sentence at the top — also tried to be a witness. To say: these places were real. The people in them were real. The lanterns on Hoshimachi Lane were hung by someone who loved them.

She thought: and now we are witnesses too. Me and Toma. We've been to these places. We've touched the stone of Old Seika Station and the pages in Rain Archive and the iron post on Tidewalk Isle. We've eaten festival food in Hoshimachi Lane and watched the lanterns.

We know.

Whatever happened to these places, we knew them.

She put her key in her door and went inside and stood in the dark hallway for a moment before turning on the light.

Three more stops.

Three more things to know.

She turned on the light. She went to her desk. She opened her notebook and wrote: *Hoshimachi Lane. Summer festival. Lanterns, old stone, survey mark, development plans. Testimony.*

Below that: *Toma bought the keychain. He said it was for the map. His ears were pink.*

Below that, after a moment: *I like him. I'm going to stop pretending otherwise.*

She looked at what she had written.

She did not cross it out.

She closed the notebook, and went to bed, and was not unhappy.

Three stops left.

She could not wait for Saturday.

She set an alarm for seven — earlier than necessary, earlier than the agreed meeting time, just because she found herself wanting the morning to start. Wanting to be in motion again. Wanting to be in the city with a map and a purpose and someone beside her who noticed the things she noticed.

Wanting, specifically, Toma's company in the particular way that had stopped being something she managed and had become simply something she wanted.

She was going to let it be that.

She was going to stop filing it under irrelevant.

She closed her eyes in the warm summer night and thought: three more Saturdays.

It was, she decided, not nearly enough.

But it was what there was. And what there was, she was going to use well.

She slept.

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Chapter 08

Chapter 8: The Hoshimachi Festival

Chapter 8: The Hoshimachi Festival

The lanterns were already lit when they arrived.

Hoshimachi Lane in summer was a different city — not the efficient, forward-moving version that Rina navigated every day, but something older and more permissive, a place that remembered how to slow down. Paper lanterns hung from the eaves of every building, not the dramatic kind from postcards but the ordinary seasonal kind: pale yellow, slightly different sizes, the kind that had been made by hand somewhere and hung by someone who had done it every summer for twenty years.

Mei had been asking Rina to come to the Hoshimachi summer festival for three years. Rina had always had a reason not to. This year she had said yes, and the reason she had said yes was standing beside her now, consulting the latest map fragment with the same focused expression he brought to mechanical problems.

"The fourth symbol," he said. "There's a marker post somewhere in this district. Old stone, probably incorporated into a building wall or a gate. The notation indicates it predates the current street layout."

"So we're looking for old stone in a street of old buildings."

"We're looking for a specific configuration. A gate post with the Amahara survey mark — a small incised circle with a horizontal line. It won't be prominently placed."

She looked at the street. It was warm — the particular warm of a summer evening that had given everything its best quality of light and sound. Music from somewhere, someone playing something with strings. The smell of festival food: grilled things, sweet things, the particular saltiness of festival vendors who had been here every summer since before she was born.

Mei appeared at her elbow.

"You brought the quiet boy," she said, at a volume that was technically a whisper.

"He has a name."

"I know his name. I know his grades, his seat in class, and that he left the spring school trip three hours early because he had somewhere to be." Mei looked at Toma with the evaluating expression she applied to everything she found interesting. "He's taller than I expected."

"Mei."

"I'm just observing. I'm a naturally observant person." She shifted her observation to Rina. "You're comfortable with him."

"We work well together."

"You're comfortable with him," Mei repeated, in the tone of someone who has made a distinction and is declining to let it be ignored. "That's different from working well together. You're comfortable in the way of someone who has stopped being careful."

Rina looked at her. Mei looked back.

"I'm going to get food," Mei said pleasantly. "Carry on."

She disappeared into the festival crowd.

Toma had not appeared to hear any of this. He was examining the gate of the nearest building — an old residential structure that had been there long enough to acquire character in its stonework. His attention was on the post at the gate's left side.

"Here," he said.

She crossed to him. In the stone of the post, near the base, almost hidden by the lamp fixture that had been added to the post at some point: a small incised circle with a horizontal line. Exactly as he had described. Barely visible unless you were looking for it.

Below the mark, in the same cramped notation: a date, a name, and an arrow. The name was a street that no longer existed — she recognized the pattern from the Rain Archive documents, a street in a district that had been cleared fifteen years ago.

The fourth stop.

She photographed it and straightened up, and found that Toma was very close — they had both been crouching to see the mark clearly and had risen at the same moment and the festival crowd had pressed inward from behind her in the way festival crowds did, and the result was proximity she had not anticipated.

He didn't step back.

She didn't step back.

"Found it," she said. Unnecessarily.

"Yes," he said.

He was looking at her rather than the mark. She was aware of the lantern light — the pale yellow of it, the slight warmth it added to everything it touched. She was aware of his face at close range, which was an experience she had been accumulating in small doses and had not yet resolved into a coherent response. She knew the line of his jaw by now, the particular set of his expression when he was managing something. She knew the version of neutral that meant he was thinking and the version that meant he was feeling something he had not yet decided about.

This was the second version.

"There's a stall on the corner," she said. "The one with the food. We should — it's the festival."

"Yes," he said.

They moved toward the stall. The crowd absorbed them and they walked through it with the comfortable navigation of two people who had learned each other's spatial habits — she moved left when he moved right, she slowed when he slowed, they arrived at the stall without incident or collision.

She looked at the display. Small crafted items alongside the food: commemorative pieces, seasonal things. A tray of keychains made in the style of old transit tokens, shaped like the magnetic-stripe cards of the discontinued lines.

She picked one up.

It was the right size for a key or a bag, the right weight — brass, she thought, or something like it. The face of it had the line designation of the old Seika coastal route embossed in it. The first stop.

She turned it over. On the back: the simple designation *SLR*, and a year.

She held it for a long moment.

She felt, rather than saw, Toma beside her at the stall. She felt the slight shift of his attention from the crowd to her hands.

Then she felt him reach past her — not urgently, not dramatically, just with the quiet certainty of someone who has already made the decision by the time the movement begins — and hand the vendor coins before she had located her own wallet.

She looked at him.

He was looking at the vendor. Completing the transaction. Exchanging the coins for the keychain, which he then held out to her.

"For the map," he said. "You document things."

She looked at the keychain in his hand. She looked at his face. His ears were very slightly — she was almost certain she was not imagining this — pink.

"That's your reason," she said.

"Yes."

She took the keychain. Their fingers didn't quite touch.

"Thank you," she said.

He turned away to look at the festival. She turned the keychain over in her fingers and looked at the old line designation and thought: this is not for the map. And he knows I know that. And he said it anyway because it was the only container available for what he actually meant.

Mei reappeared with two skewers of something grilled and an expression of studied nonchalance.

She handed Rina a skewer. She looked at the keychain in Rina's hand. She looked at Toma, who was reading the menu board with great apparent interest. She looked at Rina again.

She said nothing. But her expression said everything that needed saying, and Rina looked at her and found she could not produce the version of contradiction she had been producing for weeks.

She couldn't, because it wasn't true anymore.

She ate her festival food and held the keychain and walked through Hoshimachi Lane in the lantern light, and she thought: we are going to find the next stop, and the next, and the one after that, and somewhere in the finding of them something that is already happening is going to become something I have to name.

She thought: I think I already know what it's called.

She thought: I think I've known for several weeks.

She looked at Toma, who was standing a few feet away reading the text on a historical marker someone had placed on one of the old buildings — genuinely reading it, genuinely interested, because he was the kind of person who read things when they were there to be read.

She thought: I like him.

Not the careful, managed version of noticing. Not the observation filed under irrelevant. Just: I like him. I like who he is. I like the way he is in the world.

I like his ears when they're pink.

She closed her fingers around the keychain.

She liked Toma Kanzaki.

She was, she decided, going to stop pretending otherwise.

At least to herself.

Mei appeared at her side again and said, very quietly: "He's looking at you again."

Rina didn't look. "I know," she said.

Mei was quiet for a moment. Then: "Good."

The lanterns swung gently in the summer evening air. The festival moved around them. Somewhere, the strings played on.

Rina kept the keychain in her hand for the rest of the night.

She did not put it in her bag. She held it, the weight of it, the small brass record of a line that no longer ran — made by someone who believed that the things that had stopped should still be remembered.

She thought: yes.

She thought: I understand that now.

On the train home, Toma sat beside her again. By now this was simply what they did — the window seat was hers, the aisle seat was his, the arrangement had never been discussed and had simply become true through repetition. She had the keychain in her jacket pocket, her fingers occasionally finding it without deciding to.

She had told herself, walking back from the festival through the warm evening, that she was going to stop managing this. That the thing happening was happening and the managing of it was more effort than the thing itself. That Rina Sayo, who was good at most things she applied herself to, could also be good at this — at recognizing what was true and letting it be true without running a risk calculation on it.

She thought she could probably manage that.

The train moved. The city moved past in the dark outside the window.

"There's a connection I missed," Toma said, not looking up from his phone. "Between Hoshimachi Lane and the development documents in Rain Archive. The lane is designated for 'cultural district renewal' in one of the Mirai Axis plans. There's a timeline."

"When?"

"The documents are dated six years from now. But plans like this usually move earlier than projected." He paused. "The people who live there — the woman at the lantern stall, the old man in the building with the survey marker. They would be displaced."

She thought about the woman at the lantern stall. About the man who had placed the lanterns on the eaves of his building, every summer for twenty years.

"The festival would stop," she said.

"The festival would be — absorbed. Branded. Turned into something that could be experienced without the people who made it." He was quiet for a moment. "That's the pattern. Not erasure. Replacement. The shell of the thing without the content."

She thought about that. About the particular cruelty of not destroying things but instead keeping the surface and removing the substance. The city would still have a Hoshimachi Lane, she thought. It would just no longer be the place where people lived and hung lanterns and ran festival stalls every summer. It would be a place where tourists came to experience the aesthetic of a community that no longer existed.

"Your father understood this," she said.

"Yes. That's what he was documenting. Not just the physical places but the — meaning of them. The communities. The lives." He put his phone away. "You can't photograph that. You can only testify that it existed."

She looked at the window, at her own reflection and the city behind it.

"Is that what the map is? Testimony?"

"I think so. Evidence, yes. But also — testimony. A man saying: I was there, I saw this, it was real, it was worth being real."

She thought about the sentence at the top of the map. If the city forgets the way home, start from the first stop. Not instructions, she realized. Not a navigation tool. A plea. A record of the belief that the things being forgotten were worth finding.

That was worth more than evidence. Evidence was for courts and records. This was for something else — for whoever followed the map and understood, at the end of it, not just what had been hidden but why the hiding had been necessary.

"He was trying to make someone care," she said.

"Yes."

"He succeeded. With us."

A long pause. The train moved. The city outside was getting darker as they moved away from the center.

"Yes," Toma said. And then, quietly, without looking at her: "Thank you."

She didn't ask for what. She understood it was for following the map. For taking it seriously. For caring about what was in it — not just as evidence, but as the record of someone's effort to make sure the truth outlived the convenient version.

"Of course," she said.

Simple. True.

She looked out the window at her city. The ordinary version of it, the one that didn't know about the archive in the basement or the survey marks in the gate posts or the drainage changes in the harbor. The version that moved forward without looking at what it had left behind.

She was going to be the kind of person who looked.

She had the keychain in her pocket. She had three stops left to find. She had a partner who thanked her quietly and meant it, who built things before the conversations that would explain them, who was warm and steady and had pink ears at the festival stall.

She had, she thought, been given quite a lot this autumn.

She intended to keep all of it.

At her stop she stood, and this time he stood with her, and they navigated the aisle together, and on the platform in the warm summer night she turned to face him.

"Three more," she said.

"Three more," he agreed.

She almost said something else. The something else was present, ready, had been ready for a while. She looked at him in the platform light — the particular version of him that was most true, she had come to think, in moments like this when the day was ending and nothing was required of either of them — and she thought: I could say it now. I could say any of the things I've been filing away.

She didn't.

Not yet. She would know when.

"Good night," she said.

"Good night."

She walked to the exit. At the top of the stairs she looked back.

He was still on the platform, watching her go.

He raised one hand. Brief. Not a wave. Just: I see you.

She raised hers back.

Then she went home through the warm summer night with a keychain in her pocket and three stops left and the certain, quiet knowledge that she was, in the most important of ways, no longer alone in the city she was learning to read.

That was worth more than she had words for yet.

She was going to find the words.

She had three more Saturdays.

The night was warm enough to walk slowly. She did.

She thought about testimony. About the difference between evidence and witness. A court wanted evidence — documents, data, the traceable record. But a witness said something different. A witness said: I was there. I saw the person's face. I know what it meant to be in that place at that time.

Akio Kanzaki had tried to be both. He had built the evidence system and he had — in the map itself, in the way it was constructed, in the sentence at the top — also tried to be a witness. To say: these places were real. The people in them were real. The lanterns on Hoshimachi Lane were hung by someone who loved them.

She thought: and now we are witnesses too. Me and Toma. We've been to these places. We've touched the stone of Old Seika Station and the pages in Rain Archive and the iron post on Tidewalk Isle. We've eaten festival food in Hoshimachi Lane and watched the lanterns.

We know.

Whatever happened to these places, we knew them.

She put her key in her door and went inside and stood in the dark hallway for a moment before turning on the light.

Three more stops.

Three more things to know.

She turned on the light. She went to her desk. She opened her notebook and wrote: *Hoshimachi Lane. Summer festival. Lanterns, old stone, survey mark, development plans. Testimony.*

Below that: *Toma bought the keychain. He said it was for the map. His ears were pink.*

Below that, after a moment: *I like him. I'm going to stop pretending otherwise.*

She looked at what she had written.

She did not cross it out.

She closed the notebook, and went to bed, and was not unhappy.

Three stops left.

She could not wait for Saturday.

She set an alarm for seven — earlier than necessary, earlier than the agreed meeting time, just because she found herself wanting the morning to start. Wanting to be in motion again. Wanting to be in the city with a map and a purpose and someone beside her who noticed the things she noticed.

Wanting, specifically, Toma's company in the particular way that had stopped being something she managed and had become simply something she wanted.

She was going to let it be that.

She was going to stop filing it under irrelevant.

She closed her eyes in the warm summer night and thought: three more Saturdays.

It was, she decided, not nearly enough.

But it was what there was. And what there was, she was going to use well.

She slept.

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