The first attack came from three sides at once.
Valeria never forgot the sound of it. A long rising roar from the north, a drumbeat of hooves from the east, a thin shrill cry of horns from the south, all of it rolling together across the black marsh in the dark until the whole sky seemed to shake. The torches that had ringed the horizon wavered, split, and began to move. In the lantern light of the camp she saw soldiers spill from their half-struck tents with swords in their hands and their faces gone white and set. She heard Kaelen's voice rise over the din, harsh and carrying, calling the garrison to its stations. She heard Orsen bellow for the pike line.
"A feint," she said.
Alaric was already on his feet, buckling on his sword. He had come to her cart the instant the first horn sounded, and now he stood with one hand braced against the wheel and his eyes scanning the dark. "Which one?"
"All three. Perhaps two. Perhaps only one is real." She pushed herself up on her elbows. The fever beat behind her eyes like a drum, but her mind was clear and cold. "Cedric has four thousand men, by the torches. He does not need to attack from three sides. He is testing us. He wants to see where we will run."
"Then I will see where he strikes hardest." His eyes met hers. "Kaelen takes the north. Orsen holds the center. I will ride east, where the causeway is narrowest, and I will find out what is true."
"Alaric. If you go..."
"I will be an hour. Less." He bent and kissed her, hard and swift. "Stay with Orsen. Do not leave the center of the camp. Promise me."
She looked up at him. She saw the fear in him, and the love, and the iron, and a terrible clarity went through her like cold water. She knew what she was going to do. She had known, she thought, since she saw the torches begin to move.
"I promise I will not do anything foolish," she said.
It was not a lie. She would think of that later, with a bitter, aching sort of comfort. It was only that she had a different idea of what foolish meant.
He went. She watched him vault into the saddle of a tall black horse, with three hundred riders closing in behind him, and gallop into the dark. The hoofbeats faded. The camp roared on around her, full of shouting and steel, and she lay very still on the cart with her hands folded on her breast and listened to her own heart.
*
The truce flag went up at the first hour past midnight.
It was a long white banner on a spear, held aloft by a lone rider who trotted calmly across the open ground between the camp and the ring of torches, as unhurried as a man out for a morning canter. The fighting on the eastern side had slackened. The probing attacks to the north had broken off, as though on a signal. A ripple of uneasy quiet spread through the camp, and soldiers lowered their swords and looked at one another.
The rider drew rein at the edge of the lines, thirty paces from the pickets, and called out in a clear, pleasant voice. "I bear a message for the Lady Valeria. From the commander of the king's forces. I will give it into her hand, or to the hand of anyone she names."
Orsen came for her himself.
He found her sitting on the edge of the cart, wrapped in a gray cloak, with her feet on the ground. His face in the lantern light was set and hard. He had lost most of his color, and he carried a long rolled paper in his fist.
"You heard," he said.
"I did."
"You are not going."
"I would like to read it first."
He hesitated. Then, with a sound like a growl, he gave her the paper. She unrolled it with fingers that shook, and held it to the lantern, and read.
It was a short message, written in a neat flowing hand, and it was courteous to the point of insolence.
To the Lady Valeria, in the camp at the old palace. Greetings. I am Vael Dray, commander of His Majesty's Third Cavalry, and I address you with every respect. You are surrounded. My force numbers four thousand, and I hold every road and every ford within ten leagues. At dawn I shall give the order to advance, and your army will cease to exist.
I have no wish to do so. My master wishes only for your safe delivery to the Obsidian Palace, unharmed, that you may assist him in a scholarly matter. Come out to the old gate within the hour, alone, and I give my word as a soldier that your companions will be permitted to withdraw. If you do not, I regret that I shall be obliged to destroy them.
I await your answer.
She read it twice. When she lowered it, her hands were quite steady.
"He is lying," said Orsen. "Of course he is lying. No man alive would honor such a word."
"No." She folded the paper slowly. "But he does not need to lie about everything. A man like Dray does not want to fight thirteen hundred desperate soldiers in the dark. It would cost him a great deal. He would rather have what he came for, cheaply, and be home by the end of the week." She looked up. "That is a weakness. It means there is room to bargain."
"Girl."
"Orsen." She laid her hand on his arm. "Will you do something for me?"
The old man looked at her. His jaw worked. He knew. She saw the exact moment he knew, and she saw what it did to him, the sag of the broad shoulders, the sudden age in his face.
"No," he said, hoarsely.
"Take me to the gate."
"I will not."
"I am not asking you to let me go. I am asking you to stand beside me while I speak to him." She held his gaze. "I will not go to him alone. I will not agree to anything I have not thought through. But I must hear what he is offering. You must see that. If there is any chance at all to spare these men..."
He did not answer. He stared at her with his pale eyes wet and furious, and then he turned abruptly and called for his horse.
*
They met in the open ground between the lines, under a sky full of sullen cloud.
Vael Dray was a tall man of perhaps forty, lean and weathered, with the quick intelligent eyes of a hunter and a thin sardonic mouth. He wore dark mail and a plain black cloak, and he sat his horse with the easy grace of a man who had spent his whole life in the saddle. A dozen riders waited a respectful distance behind him. He bowed to Valeria with a grave courtesy that was almost, she thought, sincere.
"Lady Valeria. I am honored."
"Commander." She stood on foot, with Orsen on one side and Pell Aldous on the other, wrapped in her gray cloak with her chin lifted. She had braided her hair, and washed her face, and pinched color into her cheeks. She did not intend to look like a woman at the end of her strength. "I have read your message. I should like to ask some questions."
"Of course."
"You say my companions will be permitted to withdraw. To where?"
"To Shadowfall Citadel, or wherever they please. They will not be pursued."
"For how long?"
A small smile touched his mouth. "You are very thorough."
"I have been taught to be." She did not blink. "How long? A day? A week? Until they have lain down their weapons, and been disarmed, and made easy to take?"
His eyes sharpened. "I am a man of my word, my lady."
"I am sure you believe so. But you serve a man who is not." She let that settle. "I will tell you what I want, Commander. I will tell you plainly, and you will tell me whether it is possible. If it is not, I will walk back to my camp, and you may do as you like."
"Go on."
"A written guarantee. Signed by you, under your seal. Safe passage for every soul in my camp, soldier and servant, to the border of Frostfell, with no pursuit for a period of fourteen days. The release of the prisoner Orlan, whom you may take with you, since I believe your master values him." She drew a breath. "In exchange, I will come with you willingly. I will not resist. I will not try to escape. I will go to the Obsidian Palace, and do as the king asks."
Orsen made a low sound of pain.
"It is a generous offer," said Dray, slowly. His eyes had not left her face. "I confess I am surprised. I had been told that you were stubborn."
"I am. It is why I will not accept less."
"And you would trust my word?"
"No." She smiled, very slightly. "I would trust my knowledge of what you want. You want to go home, Commander. You want to deliver me to your king without a battle, and be thanked for it, and sleep in a warm bed. If I give you that, you will not waste your men on a pointless massacre. It is cheaper to keep a promise than to break one, in a case like this."
He was silent for a long time. A cold wind moved across the marsh, and the white banner snapped and fluttered above his head. Somewhere behind him a horse stamped.
"I will write it," he said at last.
*
She did not go back to the camp for long.
She had perhaps twenty minutes. She used them with ruthless care. She walked through the stirring tents in the dark with Orsen at her heels and Pell Aldous pale and silent beside her, speaking to no one. She went first to the little cart where Malakor sat surrounded by his crates, white as a sheet, clutching his satchel to his chest.
"My lady," he said. His voice cracked. "My lady, please. You cannot..."
"I have a task for you." She sat down on the tailboard, and took his thin cold hands in both of hers. "Listen to me, Malakor. Everything you need is in that satchel. The notes, the ingredients, the formulas. I wrote down the full sequence last night, every dose and every interval. It is in the red leather book. You will give it to Alaric, and you will help him make the Wine."
"But the Wine requires you!"
"It requires my blood. I will be alive. I intend to stay alive." She smiled at him. "I will not be away long, I think. Only long enough to open a door that no one else can."
"What door?"
"The one at the end of Cedric's own house." She kissed his hands, quickly, and rose. "I have something else for you. If I am not mistaken, you have a number of small glass vials in that crate. Empty ones."
"Yes. Of course. But..."
"I should like six."
He stared at her. Understanding crept slowly across his face, and with it a look of such hope and terror that she nearly laughed. He turned and rummaged in the crate, and brought out six slender vials, stoppered with wax. She filled them from her own small pouch, from the little stock of the toxins she had carried for weeks, and sealed them, and slid them one by one into the lining of her sleeve. Wolfsbane. Nightshade. Two kinds of fungus. Her hands knew the work. They did it without trembling.
"Marsh lantern," she murmured. "Ashen bell. Not enough to kill a man. Only to make him sleep."
"They will search you."
"They will find nothing. Not in a sleeve sewn by the Crimson Empire's own seamstresses." She tugged at the lining. "I learned a few things, Malakor. Not all of them were useless."
He caught her around the waist, suddenly, and held her so tightly that she gasped. She felt his thin shoulders shake. She stroked his hair, awkwardly, and murmured something she did not hear herself say.
"Be well," she said. "Look after him."
She went to find Kaelen next.
He was on the north line, behind a barricade of overturned wagons, with a bandage on his arm and a bloody sword in his hand. He had been fighting for an hour. He turned at the sound of her step and the color drained from his face.
"My lady. What are you doing? You should be in the center. The commander..."
"Kaelen." She took him by the arms, gently, and looked into his dark, anxious eyes. "I have something to tell you. And I need you to listen without arguing."
"No."
"You do not know what I am going to say."
"I know that look." His voice shook. "I have seen it on Alaric's face a dozen times. It is the look of someone who has decided to do something stupid and noble."
"I am going to Cedric's palace." She said it very quietly. "In exchange for the lives of everyone in this camp. It is already agreed. Commander Dray has signed."
Kaelen stared at her. For a long, terrible moment, he did not speak. Then he made a sound she had never heard from him, a raw, strangled, wordless cry, and caught her in his arms.
"No," he said, into her hair. "No. I swore to protect you. I swore it to him. I will not stand here and let you walk into that man's hands."
"You will."
"I will not."
"Kaelen." She pulled back and took his face between her palms, and forced him to look at her. "I do not want to die. I swear it. I have never wanted anything so much as to live. But I cannot let thirteen hundred people be slaughtered in the dark for the sake of one. I will not. It would destroy him, if I did. It would destroy everything I have tried to build." Her voice broke. "I am not giving up. I am going in to do the thing I do best. I am going to look at a monster in the face and find out where it is weak."
"It is not worth it."
"It is worth every one of you." She smiled through tears. "Promise me something."
"Anything."
"Live. Whatever happens. Whatever you hear. Stay alive, and keep him alive, and do not let him do anything reckless." She pressed her forehead against his. "He will want to. You are the only one who can stop him."
His breath hitched. He nodded, once, convulsively, and she felt his tears on her cheek.
"I will," he said. "I swear it. On my life."
"Good." She kissed his forehead, quickly, as one might a brother's. "I am so glad you were the first person in the north to look at me with suspicion."
He laughed, wetly, helplessly, and she tore herself away before he could answer.
*
There was one more thing to do.
She wrote it in the cell, by the light of a single candle, in handwriting that shook a little and then steadied. She had nothing to write on but the back of a page torn from Malakor's notes. She did not have long. Outside she could hear the pickets and the pacing of horses, the low impatient murmur of Dray's men.
Alaric, she wrote.
By the time you read this I will be gone. Do not be angry. I know you will be. I am sorry for it. I am sorry for every promise I have broken, and I would take every one of them back if I could. But I could not stand beside you and watch a thousand good people die. You would not have let me go. That is why I did not wait.
I am not running. I am not hiding. I am going to the one place you cannot reach with a sword, to do the one thing only I can do. Cedric wants me alive. He needs me alive. And while he has me, he will not harm the people I love. I have thought about it very carefully. I think I can survive it. I think I can do more than survive.
Malakor has the Wine. He knows what to do. Bring it to me, my love. Bring it when you come, and come quickly, because I do not know how long I can keep him waiting. I will find a way to make him wait. I will find a way to be alive when you arrive.
You told me once that I am not your remedy. I want you to know that you are not my cage. You are the only door I have ever walked through of my own free will.
I love you. I will see you soon.
Valeria
She folded the paper, and held it a moment against her lips. Then she took the little gray mourning knot from her wrist, the rough strip of cloth the garrison had knotted for her, with its tiny wooden bead, and tied it around the letter, and set the whole thing on Alaric's pillow.
She rose. She wrapped the little gray blanket, the one with her name on it, around her shoulders. And she walked out of the cell, and did not look back.
*
Alaric came back at the third bell of the morning.
He came at a gallop, with a dozen riders behind him, covered in mud and blood, his face streaked with soot and his eyes wild. The eastern attack had been the strongest, as he had thought. He had met it at the causeway and held it, and for an hour he had fought like a man possessed. Then, abruptly, the enemy had broken off and retreated, melting back into the dark, and he had stood panting on the wet stones with his blade dripping and a sudden sick cold dread settling in his stomach.
The camp was quiet.
He knew before he reached the first tent. He knew by the way the soldiers stood in silent ranks along the path, their faces turned away. He knew by the way Pell Aldous came running toward him with tears on his cheeks. He knew by the way Orsen sat on an upturned crate in the middle of the camp, an old man with his hands hanging between his knees, looking as though something had cut the strings that held him up.
He swung down from the horse. He did not remember doing it.
"Where is she?" he said.
Nobody spoke.
"Where is she?"
It was Kaelen who answered. He had come limping up from the north line, white-faced, with blood on his sleeve. He stopped a pace away, and for a moment he could not speak. His mouth moved. His eyes filled.
"She is gone, my lord."
The world seemed to stop.
"She went at the first bell. Dray offered terms. Safe passage for every man here, in exchange for her." Kaelen's voice shook. "She agreed. She said it would save us all. She made him sign it. We have the paper. It is in order. My lord, I tried. I begged. She would not be swayed."
Alaric stood perfectly still. He heard nothing. He felt nothing. It was as though someone had reached into his chest and drawn out everything that was warm.
"There is a letter," said Kaelen, hoarsely. "On your pillow."
He walked to the cell. He did not remember how. He stood in the doorway for a long time, looking at the narrow cot, the folded paper, the little gray knot lying on the pillow like a fallen bird. Then he crossed the floor, and picked it up, and read it.
It took a very long time.
When he lifted his head, there was nothing in his face at all.
*
She woke to a rocking motion, and the smell of leather.
For a long moment she did not know where she was. Her head hurt. Her mouth was dry and tasted of bitter herbs. She lay with her eyes closed, listening to the creak of wheels and the steady thud of hooves, and slowly, piece by piece, the memory came back. The truce flag. The signature. The cup of wine Dray had offered her at the gate, courteous and smiling, and the thin acrid note beneath its sweetness that she had recognized and drunk anyway, because she had already known he would do it.
Grave orchid. A mild dose. Enough to sleep for a day.
She opened her eyes.
She lay on a narrow padded seat in the dim interior of a closed carriage. The windows were shuttered. A single lamp swung from the ceiling, throwing a slow gold arc across the walls. Opposite her, a thin gray figure sat with a book open on his knee, a pair of white gloves folded in his lap. He lifted his pewter eyes as she stirred, and smiled his gentle, regretful smile.
"Ah," said Physician Orlan. "You are awake. I did so hope you would not be long."
She said nothing. She only turned her head, very slowly, toward the little crack in the shutters, where a thin line of pale light fell across the floor. The carriage was moving fast. It was heading north.
In her hands, folded close against her chest, lay the little gray blanket. It was still warm.
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The first attack came from three sides at once.
Valeria never forgot the sound of it. A long rising roar from the north, a drumbeat of hooves from the east, a thin shrill cry of horns from the south, all of it rolling together across the black marsh in the dark until the whole sky seemed to shake. The torches that had ringed the horizon wavered, split, and began to move. In the lantern light of the camp she saw soldiers spill from their half-struck tents with swords in their hands and their faces gone white and set. She heard Kaelen's voice rise over the din, harsh and carrying, calling the garrison to its stations. She heard Orsen bellow for the pike line.
"A feint," she said.
Alaric was already on his feet, buckling on his sword. He had come to her cart the instant the first horn sounded, and now he stood with one hand braced against the wheel and his eyes scanning the dark. "Which one?"
"All three. Perhaps two. Perhaps only one is real." She pushed herself up on her elbows. The fever beat behind her eyes like a drum, but her mind was clear and cold. "Cedric has four thousand men, by the torches. He does not need to attack from three sides. He is testing us. He wants to see where we will run."
"Then I will see where he strikes hardest." His eyes met hers. "Kaelen takes the north. Orsen holds the center. I will ride east, where the causeway is narrowest, and I will find out what is true."
"Alaric. If you go..."
"I will be an hour. Less." He bent and kissed her, hard and swift. "Stay with Orsen. Do not leave the center of the camp. Promise me."
She looked up at him. She saw the fear in him, and the love, and the iron, and a terrible clarity went through her like cold water. She knew what she was going to do. She had known, she thought, since she saw the torches begin to move.
"I promise I will not do anything foolish," she said.
It was not a lie. She would think of that later, with a bitter, aching sort of comfort. It was only that she had a different idea of what foolish meant.
He went. She watched him vault into the saddle of a tall black horse, with three hundred riders closing in behind him, and gallop into the dark. The hoofbeats faded. The camp roared on around her, full of shouting and steel, and she lay very still on the cart with her hands folded on her breast and listened to her own heart.
*
The truce flag went up at the first hour past midnight.
It was a long white banner on a spear, held aloft by a lone rider who trotted calmly across the open ground between the camp and the ring of torches, as unhurried as a man out for a morning canter. The fighting on the eastern side had slackened. The probing attacks to the north had broken off, as though on a signal. A ripple of uneasy quiet spread through the camp, and soldiers lowered their swords and looked at one another.
The rider drew rein at the edge of the lines, thirty paces from the pickets, and called out in a clear, pleasant voice. "I bear a message for the Lady Valeria. From the commander of the king's forces. I will give it into her hand, or to the hand of anyone she names."
Orsen came for her himself.
He found her sitting on the edge of the cart, wrapped in a gray cloak, with her feet on the ground. His face in the lantern light was set and hard. He had lost most of his color, and he carried a long rolled paper in his fist.
"You heard," he said.
"I did."
"You are not going."
"I would like to read it first."
He hesitated. Then, with a sound like a growl, he gave her the paper. She unrolled it with fingers that shook, and held it to the lantern, and read.
It was a short message, written in a neat flowing hand, and it was courteous to the point of insolence.
To the Lady Valeria, in the camp at the old palace. Greetings. I am Vael Dray, commander of His Majesty's Third Cavalry, and I address you with every respect. You are surrounded. My force numbers four thousand, and I hold every road and every ford within ten leagues. At dawn I shall give the order to advance, and your army will cease to exist.
I have no wish to do so. My master wishes only for your safe delivery to the Obsidian Palace, unharmed, that you may assist him in a scholarly matter. Come out to the old gate within the hour, alone, and I give my word as a soldier that your companions will be permitted to withdraw. If you do not, I regret that I shall be obliged to destroy them.
I await your answer.
She read it twice. When she lowered it, her hands were quite steady.
"He is lying," said Orsen. "Of course he is lying. No man alive would honor such a word."
"No." She folded the paper slowly. "But he does not need to lie about everything. A man like Dray does not want to fight thirteen hundred desperate soldiers in the dark. It would cost him a great deal. He would rather have what he came for, cheaply, and be home by the end of the week." She looked up. "That is a weakness. It means there is room to bargain."
"Girl."
"Orsen." She laid her hand on his arm. "Will you do something for me?"
The old man looked at her. His jaw worked. He knew. She saw the exact moment he knew, and she saw what it did to him, the sag of the broad shoulders, the sudden age in his face.
"No," he said, hoarsely.
"Take me to the gate."
"I will not."
"I am not asking you to let me go. I am asking you to stand beside me while I speak to him." She held his gaze. "I will not go to him alone. I will not agree to anything I have not thought through. But I must hear what he is offering. You must see that. If there is any chance at all to spare these men..."
He did not answer. He stared at her with his pale eyes wet and furious, and then he turned abruptly and called for his horse.
*
They met in the open ground between the lines, under a sky full of sullen cloud.
Vael Dray was a tall man of perhaps forty, lean and weathered, with the quick intelligent eyes of a hunter and a thin sardonic mouth. He wore dark mail and a plain black cloak, and he sat his horse with the easy grace of a man who had spent his whole life in the saddle. A dozen riders waited a respectful distance behind him. He bowed to Valeria with a grave courtesy that was almost, she thought, sincere.
"Lady Valeria. I am honored."
"Commander." She stood on foot, with Orsen on one side and Pell Aldous on the other, wrapped in her gray cloak with her chin lifted. She had braided her hair, and washed her face, and pinched color into her cheeks. She did not intend to look like a woman at the end of her strength. "I have read your message. I should like to ask some questions."
"Of course."
"You say my companions will be permitted to withdraw. To where?"
"To Shadowfall Citadel, or wherever they please. They will not be pursued."
"For how long?"
A small smile touched his mouth. "You are very thorough."
"I have been taught to be." She did not blink. "How long? A day? A week? Until they have lain down their weapons, and been disarmed, and made easy to take?"
His eyes sharpened. "I am a man of my word, my lady."
"I am sure you believe so. But you serve a man who is not." She let that settle. "I will tell you what I want, Commander. I will tell you plainly, and you will tell me whether it is possible. If it is not, I will walk back to my camp, and you may do as you like."
"Go on."
"A written guarantee. Signed by you, under your seal. Safe passage for every soul in my camp, soldier and servant, to the border of Frostfell, with no pursuit for a period of fourteen days. The release of the prisoner Orlan, whom you may take with you, since I believe your master values him." She drew a breath. "In exchange, I will come with you willingly. I will not resist. I will not try to escape. I will go to the Obsidian Palace, and do as the king asks."
Orsen made a low sound of pain.
"It is a generous offer," said Dray, slowly. His eyes had not left her face. "I confess I am surprised. I had been told that you were stubborn."
"I am. It is why I will not accept less."
"And you would trust my word?"
"No." She smiled, very slightly. "I would trust my knowledge of what you want. You want to go home, Commander. You want to deliver me to your king without a battle, and be thanked for it, and sleep in a warm bed. If I give you that, you will not waste your men on a pointless massacre. It is cheaper to keep a promise than to break one, in a case like this."
He was silent for a long time. A cold wind moved across the marsh, and the white banner snapped and fluttered above his head. Somewhere behind him a horse stamped.
"I will write it," he said at last.
*
She did not go back to the camp for long.
She had perhaps twenty minutes. She used them with ruthless care. She walked through the stirring tents in the dark with Orsen at her heels and Pell Aldous pale and silent beside her, speaking to no one. She went first to the little cart where Malakor sat surrounded by his crates, white as a sheet, clutching his satchel to his chest.
"My lady," he said. His voice cracked. "My lady, please. You cannot..."
"I have a task for you." She sat down on the tailboard, and took his thin cold hands in both of hers. "Listen to me, Malakor. Everything you need is in that satchel. The notes, the ingredients, the formulas. I wrote down the full sequence last night, every dose and every interval. It is in the red leather book. You will give it to Alaric, and you will help him make the Wine."
"But the Wine requires you!"
"It requires my blood. I will be alive. I intend to stay alive." She smiled at him. "I will not be away long, I think. Only long enough to open a door that no one else can."
"What door?"
"The one at the end of Cedric's own house." She kissed his hands, quickly, and rose. "I have something else for you. If I am not mistaken, you have a number of small glass vials in that crate. Empty ones."
"Yes. Of course. But..."
"I should like six."
He stared at her. Understanding crept slowly across his face, and with it a look of such hope and terror that she nearly laughed. He turned and rummaged in the crate, and brought out six slender vials, stoppered with wax. She filled them from her own small pouch, from the little stock of the toxins she had carried for weeks, and sealed them, and slid them one by one into the lining of her sleeve. Wolfsbane. Nightshade. Two kinds of fungus. Her hands knew the work. They did it without trembling.
"Marsh lantern," she murmured. "Ashen bell. Not enough to kill a man. Only to make him sleep."
"They will search you."
"They will find nothing. Not in a sleeve sewn by the Crimson Empire's own seamstresses." She tugged at the lining. "I learned a few things, Malakor. Not all of them were useless."
He caught her around the waist, suddenly, and held her so tightly that she gasped. She felt his thin shoulders shake. She stroked his hair, awkwardly, and murmured something she did not hear herself say.
"Be well," she said. "Look after him."
She went to find Kaelen next.
He was on the north line, behind a barricade of overturned wagons, with a bandage on his arm and a bloody sword in his hand. He had been fighting for an hour. He turned at the sound of her step and the color drained from his face.
"My lady. What are you doing? You should be in the center. The commander..."
"Kaelen." She took him by the arms, gently, and looked into his dark, anxious eyes. "I have something to tell you. And I need you to listen without arguing."
"No."
"You do not know what I am going to say."
"I know that look." His voice shook. "I have seen it on Alaric's face a dozen times. It is the look of someone who has decided to do something stupid and noble."
"I am going to Cedric's palace." She said it very quietly. "In exchange for the lives of everyone in this camp. It is already agreed. Commander Dray has signed."
Kaelen stared at her. For a long, terrible moment, he did not speak. Then he made a sound she had never heard from him, a raw, strangled, wordless cry, and caught her in his arms.
"No," he said, into her hair. "No. I swore to protect you. I swore it to him. I will not stand here and let you walk into that man's hands."
"You will."
"I will not."
"Kaelen." She pulled back and took his face between her palms, and forced him to look at her. "I do not want to die. I swear it. I have never wanted anything so much as to live. But I cannot let thirteen hundred people be slaughtered in the dark for the sake of one. I will not. It would destroy him, if I did. It would destroy everything I have tried to build." Her voice broke. "I am not giving up. I am going in to do the thing I do best. I am going to look at a monster in the face and find out where it is weak."
"It is not worth it."
"It is worth every one of you." She smiled through tears. "Promise me something."
"Anything."
"Live. Whatever happens. Whatever you hear. Stay alive, and keep him alive, and do not let him do anything reckless." She pressed her forehead against his. "He will want to. You are the only one who can stop him."
His breath hitched. He nodded, once, convulsively, and she felt his tears on her cheek.
"I will," he said. "I swear it. On my life."
"Good." She kissed his forehead, quickly, as one might a brother's. "I am so glad you were the first person in the north to look at me with suspicion."
He laughed, wetly, helplessly, and she tore herself away before he could answer.
*
There was one more thing to do.
She wrote it in the cell, by the light of a single candle, in handwriting that shook a little and then steadied. She had nothing to write on but the back of a page torn from Malakor's notes. She did not have long. Outside she could hear the pickets and the pacing of horses, the low impatient murmur of Dray's men.
Alaric, she wrote.
By the time you read this I will be gone. Do not be angry. I know you will be. I am sorry for it. I am sorry for every promise I have broken, and I would take every one of them back if I could. But I could not stand beside you and watch a thousand good people die. You would not have let me go. That is why I did not wait.
I am not running. I am not hiding. I am going to the one place you cannot reach with a sword, to do the one thing only I can do. Cedric wants me alive. He needs me alive. And while he has me, he will not harm the people I love. I have thought about it very carefully. I think I can survive it. I think I can do more than survive.
Malakor has the Wine. He knows what to do. Bring it to me, my love. Bring it when you come, and come quickly, because I do not know how long I can keep him waiting. I will find a way to make him wait. I will find a way to be alive when you arrive.
You told me once that I am not your remedy. I want you to know that you are not my cage. You are the only door I have ever walked through of my own free will.
I love you. I will see you soon.
Valeria
She folded the paper, and held it a moment against her lips. Then she took the little gray mourning knot from her wrist, the rough strip of cloth the garrison had knotted for her, with its tiny wooden bead, and tied it around the letter, and set the whole thing on Alaric's pillow.
She rose. She wrapped the little gray blanket, the one with her name on it, around her shoulders. And she walked out of the cell, and did not look back.
*
Alaric came back at the third bell of the morning.
He came at a gallop, with a dozen riders behind him, covered in mud and blood, his face streaked with soot and his eyes wild. The eastern attack had been the strongest, as he had thought. He had met it at the causeway and held it, and for an hour he had fought like a man possessed. Then, abruptly, the enemy had broken off and retreated, melting back into the dark, and he had stood panting on the wet stones with his blade dripping and a sudden sick cold dread settling in his stomach.
The camp was quiet.
He knew before he reached the first tent. He knew by the way the soldiers stood in silent ranks along the path, their faces turned away. He knew by the way Pell Aldous came running toward him with tears on his cheeks. He knew by the way Orsen sat on an upturned crate in the middle of the camp, an old man with his hands hanging between his knees, looking as though something had cut the strings that held him up.
He swung down from the horse. He did not remember doing it.
"Where is she?" he said.
Nobody spoke.
"Where is she?"
It was Kaelen who answered. He had come limping up from the north line, white-faced, with blood on his sleeve. He stopped a pace away, and for a moment he could not speak. His mouth moved. His eyes filled.
"She is gone, my lord."
The world seemed to stop.
"She went at the first bell. Dray offered terms. Safe passage for every man here, in exchange for her." Kaelen's voice shook. "She agreed. She said it would save us all. She made him sign it. We have the paper. It is in order. My lord, I tried. I begged. She would not be swayed."
Alaric stood perfectly still. He heard nothing. He felt nothing. It was as though someone had reached into his chest and drawn out everything that was warm.
"There is a letter," said Kaelen, hoarsely. "On your pillow."
He walked to the cell. He did not remember how. He stood in the doorway for a long time, looking at the narrow cot, the folded paper, the little gray knot lying on the pillow like a fallen bird. Then he crossed the floor, and picked it up, and read it.
It took a very long time.
When he lifted his head, there was nothing in his face at all.
*
She woke to a rocking motion, and the smell of leather.
For a long moment she did not know where she was. Her head hurt. Her mouth was dry and tasted of bitter herbs. She lay with her eyes closed, listening to the creak of wheels and the steady thud of hooves, and slowly, piece by piece, the memory came back. The truce flag. The signature. The cup of wine Dray had offered her at the gate, courteous and smiling, and the thin acrid note beneath its sweetness that she had recognized and drunk anyway, because she had already known he would do it.
Grave orchid. A mild dose. Enough to sleep for a day.
She opened her eyes.
She lay on a narrow padded seat in the dim interior of a closed carriage. The windows were shuttered. A single lamp swung from the ceiling, throwing a slow gold arc across the walls. Opposite her, a thin gray figure sat with a book open on his knee, a pair of white gloves folded in his lap. He lifted his pewter eyes as she stirred, and smiled his gentle, regretful smile.
"Ah," said Physician Orlan. "You are awake. I did so hope you would not be long."
She said nothing. She only turned her head, very slowly, toward the little crack in the shutters, where a thin line of pale light fell across the floor. The carriage was moving fast. It was heading north.
In her hands, folded close against her chest, lay the little gray blanket. It was still warm.
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