Chapter 05

Chapter 5: The One Who Listens Most

Chapter 5: The One Who Listens Most

It became clear, over the days that followed Skritch's confrontation, that Grok had developed a habit nobody else in the tribe seemed to share: he came to the hollow constantly, far more often than the ritual strictly required, and he almost never knelt to ask anything at all. He simply came, and sat, close enough to hear but not so close as to seem presumptuous, and listened to whatever anyone else asked when they happened to visit.

Ben noticed the pattern within the first few days, the way he used to notice which kid in a classroom always finished their worksheet early and then quietly reread the classroom's one dog-eared encyclopedia instead of causing trouble. Grok wasn't strong enough, by Shardkin standards, to be much use in hunting parties or on watch, and Ben had gathered, mostly by putting together things he'd overheard, that this left him with an unusual amount of unstructured time that most other children his age didn't have — time spent, by most accounts, on the small, unglamorous chores nobody else wanted, fetching water, mending torn hides, carrying bundles too light to be worth a stronger set of arms, and then, once those were finished, drifting back here instead of toward whatever games or company the other children his age preferred.

He used that time, as far as Ben could tell, almost entirely on this.

It showed, soon enough, in small but unmistakable ways. When a father knelt to ask, uncertainly, whether the "wash before eating" decree also applied to washing before nursing an infant, and Ben answered yes, obviously, please, always, Grok — sitting a respectful distance away, uninvited into the conversation at all — spoke up quietly afterward to a cluster of mothers standing nearby, correcting a rumor that had apparently been circulating that infants were exempt. He got the wording almost exactly right, word for word, in a tone that suggested he'd simply absorbed it the way some kids absorbed song lyrics without trying.

When an argument broke out three days later about whether the water channel needed to be moved again for the coming rains, Grok was the one who quietly reminded everyone, unprompted, precisely what Ben had said about drawing only from above the waste pits — not phrased as his own opinion, but recited carefully, almost reverently, the way Ben imagined the words might have been recited if Ben himself had somehow become a small, sharp-eared boy instead of a rock.

A few days after that, Ben overheard an entirely different kind of test of the boy's growing reputation — not a question of accuracy this time, but of nerve. An older girl, clearly testing whether the rumors about Grok's memory were exaggerated, demanded in front of a small crowd that he recite, word for word, everything the stone had said about wound care all the way back on the very first week, threatening to declare him a fraud in front of everyone if he faltered. Ben listened, tensed in the particular helpless way he'd come to recognize whenever something mattered and he had no ritual open to intervene, as Grok took a visible breath and delivered the entire explanation back almost flawlessly — not simply the instructions, but the reasoning behind them, the part about small unseen things thriving in filth, delivered with a calm precision that silenced the crowd rather more effectively than any display of physical strength could have managed. The girl, to her credit, admitted she'd been wrong, loudly enough for everyone present to hear it, and word of the exchange spread through the hollow faster than either the hygiene decree or the water decree ever had on their own.

Ben noted, with a private satisfaction he didn't bother trying to suppress, that this was precisely the moment a reputation stopped being fragile — not the first time someone got something right, but the first time getting it right survived a real, public challenge.

He noticed, too, a smaller change that nobody else seemed to be tracking as closely as he was: the questions people brought to Grok directly, without bothering to walk all the way to the hollow first, were starting to outnumber the questions brought straight to the stone. It was a small thing, easy to miss if you weren't listening for it specifically, but Ben understood exactly what it meant. Trust, once it existed at all, didn't have to run through him personally to still count as real. That was, in its own way, the entire point of everything he was trying to build here, whether or not anyone including Grok himself had quite named it yet: a tribe that didn't need to keep asking the same question forever, because someone among them had learned to carry the answer forward on their own.

It was, Ben thought, listening to this pattern solidify over days that blurred pleasantly together in a way his old exhausted life rarely had, exactly the kind of thing a good teacher lived for and almost never got to see so clearly: not just a student who listened, but one who cared enough about getting it right to correct other people, gently, in the moment, without being asked.

He said as much, the next time Grok actually knelt to ask something directly rather than simply loitering nearby — a small, technical question about whether boiling water too long undid the benefit of boiling it at all, the kind of oddly specific question Ben recognized immediately as belonging to someone who had been quietly testing the decree's edges on his own initiative rather than simply following it. It was, Ben thought, exactly the kind of question a curious kid asked once they'd stopped merely obeying an instruction and started actually wanting to understand it, and he answered it more thoroughly than the question strictly required, partly because he suspected Grok would appreciate the extra detail more than most, and partly, if he was honest, because he simply enjoyed having someone to explain things to properly again.

"You've been paying closer attention than anyone else who comes here," Ben told him, after answering the actual question. "I noticed."

There was a pause, longer than the question warranted, and Ben got the distinct sense he'd caught the boy off guard.

"I don't have much else to do," Grok said finally, in a tone that was clearly meant to sound offhand and didn't quite manage it. "I'm not much good for anything else."

"That's not the same thing as not being good for anything," Ben said, careful and immediate, recognizing the shape of the sentence for exactly what it was — the kind of thing a kid only says once they've heard some version of it enough times from someone else that it's started to sound like the truth instead of an insult.

Grok didn't answer that directly. "My father says the same thing you just said, except he doesn't mean it the way you do."

Before Ben could ask what that meant, footsteps arrived — heavy, deliberate, unmistakably annoyed even before whoever it belonged to said a single word — and Grok went rigid in a way Ben could hear even without seeing it, some old, practiced instinct kicking in that had clearly been trained by exactly this sound arriving at exactly the wrong moment more times than Ben wanted to think about.

"There you are," the new voice said, and Ben recognized it immediately as the same gruff, bitter voice he'd overheard complaining after Skritch's confrontation days earlier. "Sitting at the rock again instead of at drills. Half the boys your age are already strong enough to carry a spear on watch, and you're here talking to stone about boiled water."

"I finished my chores," Grok said, quiet but not quite steady. "I always finish my chores first."

"Chores." The word came out like something distasteful. "Fetching water. Carrying bundles. Things anyone could do. You think talking to a rock all day is going to put muscle on those arms? You think it'll make you fast enough to keep up on a hunt, or strong enough to hold a line if something comes over that ridge?"

"Maybe not," Grok said, and Ben could hear, even in just those two words, the effort it took to keep his voice level. "But I remember everything it says. Better than anyone else does. That's worth something too."

"Worth something." A short, humorless laugh. "You're worth remembering words, and your cousin's worth putting a spear through a boar's throat at ten paces, and you think those are the same kind of worth? You were born small and you'll die small if you keep spending your strength on your mouth instead of your hands. Get up. Drills aren't finished."

Ben listened to the silence that followed — Grok not moving, not answering, the particular frozen stillness of a kid who has just been handed, in public, in front of the one place he'd started to feel like he mattered, the exact same verdict he'd apparently been hearing his whole life — and felt something in himself that had nothing to do with careful classroom composure and everything to do with a much older, much less patient instinct.

He couldn't move. He couldn't step between them, couldn't put a hand on anyone's shoulder, couldn't do any of the hundred small physical things he'd relied on for fifteen years to defuse exactly this kind of moment. He had, as always, exactly one tool available to him, and no ritual currently open to use it — Grum hadn't knelt, hadn't asked anything, had no intention of addressing the stone at all.

So Ben did the only thing he could do within the shape of his own maddening limitations. He waited, coiled with an urgency that had nowhere to go, for the fraction of a second it took Grum to turn and stalk off — muttering something else under his breath about wasted potential that Ben didn't bother committing to memory — and the moment the man's footsteps had receded far enough to no longer count, Ben spoke, without waiting for anyone to kneel at all, testing, for the first time on purpose, whether the valve could be forced open by something other than the ritual.

It could. Barely. It cost him something to do it — a strain he had no name for, a pressure pushed further than it wanted to go — but the words came out anyway, quieter than usual, meant for one listener only.

"He's wrong."

Grok made a small, startled sound — Ben hadn't been asked anything, hadn't been knelt to, and clearly hadn't been expected to speak at all under those conditions.

"You don't have to say that," Grok said, after a moment, in a voice that was trying very hard not to sound like it needed to hear it.

"I'm not saying it because I have to," Ben said. "I'm saying it because it's true, and because I don't think anyone's bothered to actually explain to you why it's true instead of just telling you it is."

He waited for the boy to settle, to stop bracing for whatever came next, before he went on.

"Your father's right that strength like his matters. It kept this tribe alive for longer than anyone can count, and it will keep mattering long after I'm not the only strange new thing you all have to deal with. But strength isn't one thing wearing one face. What you did just now, correcting the mothers about the water three days ago, remembering exactly what I said about the channel down to the word — that's not nothing. That's the tribe not losing what it's learned the moment I stop being asked the same question twice. That's the difference between one person understanding something and an entire tribe understanding it. I've watched rooms full of children forget a lesson within a week without someone like you in it to remind everyone else. You are that, for this tribe, right now, whether anyone else has noticed yet or not."

Grok didn't say anything for a long moment. When he finally spoke, his voice had steadied, just slightly, into something Ben recognized — the particular, careful tone of a kid deciding, in real time, whether to actually believe something good about himself or file it away as a nice thing an adult said once.

"Nobody's ever put it that way before."

"That doesn't make it less true," Ben said. "It just means nobody's said it yet. I intend to keep saying it, as often as it turns out to be useful, until it stops sounding strange to you and starts sounding like something you already knew."

Another pause, and then, quieter, almost embarrassed: "Will you tell me if I get something wrong? When I repeat what you've said to other people. I don't want to get it wrong and have everyone believe the wrong thing because of me."

"Yes," Ben said, and meant it as plainly as he'd meant anything since waking in this stone. "Every time. That's not a punishment, by the way. That's just what happens when you're actually trying to get something right instead of just trying to look like you already know it. The second kind of person never asks that question."

He heard, for the first time since the conversation started, something that might have been the very beginning of a smile in the boy's voice, small and uncertain but real. "Then I suppose I'm the first kind."

"You are," Ben agreed. "By a fairly wide margin, as far as I can tell."

Grok stayed a while longer after that, not asking anything else, simply sitting in the quiet the way he always did. At one point he asked, almost idly, whether Ben had ever had a father who told him he wasn't good enough at anything, and Ben found himself hesitating for the first time in the conversation — some of the sharper edges of his old life having gone soft and distant in a way he couldn't fully explain, memories present but strangely muted, like photographs left too long in the sun. He said, honestly, that he didn't remember clearly anymore, and that this not-remembering had started to worry him a little, and Grok, with a gentleness Ben hadn't expected from a child nursing his own fresh wound, said that maybe it was better that way, if it meant Ben got to start over without carrying anyone else's verdict about him either.

Ben found he didn't have a good answer to that, and said so, and Grok seemed satisfied enough with the honesty of it to let the question go.

They talked a while longer about smaller things — which berries near the eastern wall were safe to eat raw and which needed cooking first, a piece of practical knowledge Ben was faintly embarrassed to admit he'd been guessing at until Grok corrected him with the easy confidence of someone who'd actually eaten the wrong one once and paid for it, describing the resulting stomachache in enough vivid, aggrieved detail that Ben found himself almost laughing, an odd, unfamiliar sensation for something with no lungs to laugh with. Ben made him repeat the correction twice, partly to fix it properly in his own borrowed memory, and partly, if he was honest with himself, simply to keep the conversation going a little longer than it strictly needed to.

When the footsteps finally did retreat, later than usual, they sounded lighter than they had arrived — not lighter in weight, exactly, but lighter in the specific way a person's steps change once some old, heavy certainty about themselves has been quietly, carefully set down.

Ben settled into the dark once the sound had faded completely, turning the whole exchange over the way he used to turn over a good day's teaching on the drive home, back when there had been a drive home to have thoughts on.

*Strength isn't one thing wearing one face,* he thought again, testing the phrase the way he tested most things now, out of old habit. *I should probably find a way to make Rekk hear that one eventually. Preferably before Grum finds another audience to say the opposite in front of.*

He didn't know yet how long it would take for the rest of the tribe to notice what he'd already started to see clearly in the boy who kept coming back to sit quietly at his feet. He only knew, with a certainty that felt entirely earned this time, that it was going to matter a great deal more than anyone currently arguing about spears and drills understood.

He thought, before the night finally settled into full quiet around him, that there was something almost funny about the shape his second life had taken so far — that after fifteen years spent trying to convince exhausted colleagues, skeptical parents, and distracted seven-year-olds that patience mattered as much as talent, he had died and been reborn as a literal, motionless rock, and had somehow still ended up doing exactly the same job, just slower, and with considerably higher stakes attached to every lesson. He wasn't sure yet whether that counted as a curse or a strange kind of mercy. For tonight, at least, listening to the last of the boy's footsteps fade into the dark, he decided it counted as neither, and simply let it be what it was — a quiet hollow, a dripping fissure, and, somewhere out there under an unfamiliar sky, one small student slowly learning to believe something better about himself than the world had bothered to offer him so far. It was, Ben thought, as good a reason as any to have kept on existing at all, in whatever strange, motionless, unexpected form this second life had chosen to hand him, and he found, turning the thought over one last time before the hollow finally settled into its ordinary nighttime quiet, that he was no longer inclined to argue with it.

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Chapter 05

Chapter 5: The One Who Listens Most

Chapter 5: The One Who Listens Most

It became clear, over the days that followed Skritch's confrontation, that Grok had developed a habit nobody else in the tribe seemed to share: he came to the hollow constantly, far more often than the ritual strictly required, and he almost never knelt to ask anything at all. He simply came, and sat, close enough to hear but not so close as to seem presumptuous, and listened to whatever anyone else asked when they happened to visit.

Ben noticed the pattern within the first few days, the way he used to notice which kid in a classroom always finished their worksheet early and then quietly reread the classroom's one dog-eared encyclopedia instead of causing trouble. Grok wasn't strong enough, by Shardkin standards, to be much use in hunting parties or on watch, and Ben had gathered, mostly by putting together things he'd overheard, that this left him with an unusual amount of unstructured time that most other children his age didn't have — time spent, by most accounts, on the small, unglamorous chores nobody else wanted, fetching water, mending torn hides, carrying bundles too light to be worth a stronger set of arms, and then, once those were finished, drifting back here instead of toward whatever games or company the other children his age preferred.

He used that time, as far as Ben could tell, almost entirely on this.

It showed, soon enough, in small but unmistakable ways. When a father knelt to ask, uncertainly, whether the "wash before eating" decree also applied to washing before nursing an infant, and Ben answered yes, obviously, please, always, Grok — sitting a respectful distance away, uninvited into the conversation at all — spoke up quietly afterward to a cluster of mothers standing nearby, correcting a rumor that had apparently been circulating that infants were exempt. He got the wording almost exactly right, word for word, in a tone that suggested he'd simply absorbed it the way some kids absorbed song lyrics without trying.

When an argument broke out three days later about whether the water channel needed to be moved again for the coming rains, Grok was the one who quietly reminded everyone, unprompted, precisely what Ben had said about drawing only from above the waste pits — not phrased as his own opinion, but recited carefully, almost reverently, the way Ben imagined the words might have been recited if Ben himself had somehow become a small, sharp-eared boy instead of a rock.

A few days after that, Ben overheard an entirely different kind of test of the boy's growing reputation — not a question of accuracy this time, but of nerve. An older girl, clearly testing whether the rumors about Grok's memory were exaggerated, demanded in front of a small crowd that he recite, word for word, everything the stone had said about wound care all the way back on the very first week, threatening to declare him a fraud in front of everyone if he faltered. Ben listened, tensed in the particular helpless way he'd come to recognize whenever something mattered and he had no ritual open to intervene, as Grok took a visible breath and delivered the entire explanation back almost flawlessly — not simply the instructions, but the reasoning behind them, the part about small unseen things thriving in filth, delivered with a calm precision that silenced the crowd rather more effectively than any display of physical strength could have managed. The girl, to her credit, admitted she'd been wrong, loudly enough for everyone present to hear it, and word of the exchange spread through the hollow faster than either the hygiene decree or the water decree ever had on their own.

Ben noted, with a private satisfaction he didn't bother trying to suppress, that this was precisely the moment a reputation stopped being fragile — not the first time someone got something right, but the first time getting it right survived a real, public challenge.

He noticed, too, a smaller change that nobody else seemed to be tracking as closely as he was: the questions people brought to Grok directly, without bothering to walk all the way to the hollow first, were starting to outnumber the questions brought straight to the stone. It was a small thing, easy to miss if you weren't listening for it specifically, but Ben understood exactly what it meant. Trust, once it existed at all, didn't have to run through him personally to still count as real. That was, in its own way, the entire point of everything he was trying to build here, whether or not anyone including Grok himself had quite named it yet: a tribe that didn't need to keep asking the same question forever, because someone among them had learned to carry the answer forward on their own.

It was, Ben thought, listening to this pattern solidify over days that blurred pleasantly together in a way his old exhausted life rarely had, exactly the kind of thing a good teacher lived for and almost never got to see so clearly: not just a student who listened, but one who cared enough about getting it right to correct other people, gently, in the moment, without being asked.

He said as much, the next time Grok actually knelt to ask something directly rather than simply loitering nearby — a small, technical question about whether boiling water too long undid the benefit of boiling it at all, the kind of oddly specific question Ben recognized immediately as belonging to someone who had been quietly testing the decree's edges on his own initiative rather than simply following it. It was, Ben thought, exactly the kind of question a curious kid asked once they'd stopped merely obeying an instruction and started actually wanting to understand it, and he answered it more thoroughly than the question strictly required, partly because he suspected Grok would appreciate the extra detail more than most, and partly, if he was honest, because he simply enjoyed having someone to explain things to properly again.

"You've been paying closer attention than anyone else who comes here," Ben told him, after answering the actual question. "I noticed."

There was a pause, longer than the question warranted, and Ben got the distinct sense he'd caught the boy off guard.

"I don't have much else to do," Grok said finally, in a tone that was clearly meant to sound offhand and didn't quite manage it. "I'm not much good for anything else."

"That's not the same thing as not being good for anything," Ben said, careful and immediate, recognizing the shape of the sentence for exactly what it was — the kind of thing a kid only says once they've heard some version of it enough times from someone else that it's started to sound like the truth instead of an insult.

Grok didn't answer that directly. "My father says the same thing you just said, except he doesn't mean it the way you do."

Before Ben could ask what that meant, footsteps arrived — heavy, deliberate, unmistakably annoyed even before whoever it belonged to said a single word — and Grok went rigid in a way Ben could hear even without seeing it, some old, practiced instinct kicking in that had clearly been trained by exactly this sound arriving at exactly the wrong moment more times than Ben wanted to think about.

"There you are," the new voice said, and Ben recognized it immediately as the same gruff, bitter voice he'd overheard complaining after Skritch's confrontation days earlier. "Sitting at the rock again instead of at drills. Half the boys your age are already strong enough to carry a spear on watch, and you're here talking to stone about boiled water."

"I finished my chores," Grok said, quiet but not quite steady. "I always finish my chores first."

"Chores." The word came out like something distasteful. "Fetching water. Carrying bundles. Things anyone could do. You think talking to a rock all day is going to put muscle on those arms? You think it'll make you fast enough to keep up on a hunt, or strong enough to hold a line if something comes over that ridge?"

"Maybe not," Grok said, and Ben could hear, even in just those two words, the effort it took to keep his voice level. "But I remember everything it says. Better than anyone else does. That's worth something too."

"Worth something." A short, humorless laugh. "You're worth remembering words, and your cousin's worth putting a spear through a boar's throat at ten paces, and you think those are the same kind of worth? You were born small and you'll die small if you keep spending your strength on your mouth instead of your hands. Get up. Drills aren't finished."

Ben listened to the silence that followed — Grok not moving, not answering, the particular frozen stillness of a kid who has just been handed, in public, in front of the one place he'd started to feel like he mattered, the exact same verdict he'd apparently been hearing his whole life — and felt something in himself that had nothing to do with careful classroom composure and everything to do with a much older, much less patient instinct.

He couldn't move. He couldn't step between them, couldn't put a hand on anyone's shoulder, couldn't do any of the hundred small physical things he'd relied on for fifteen years to defuse exactly this kind of moment. He had, as always, exactly one tool available to him, and no ritual currently open to use it — Grum hadn't knelt, hadn't asked anything, had no intention of addressing the stone at all.

So Ben did the only thing he could do within the shape of his own maddening limitations. He waited, coiled with an urgency that had nowhere to go, for the fraction of a second it took Grum to turn and stalk off — muttering something else under his breath about wasted potential that Ben didn't bother committing to memory — and the moment the man's footsteps had receded far enough to no longer count, Ben spoke, without waiting for anyone to kneel at all, testing, for the first time on purpose, whether the valve could be forced open by something other than the ritual.

It could. Barely. It cost him something to do it — a strain he had no name for, a pressure pushed further than it wanted to go — but the words came out anyway, quieter than usual, meant for one listener only.

"He's wrong."

Grok made a small, startled sound — Ben hadn't been asked anything, hadn't been knelt to, and clearly hadn't been expected to speak at all under those conditions.

"You don't have to say that," Grok said, after a moment, in a voice that was trying very hard not to sound like it needed to hear it.

"I'm not saying it because I have to," Ben said. "I'm saying it because it's true, and because I don't think anyone's bothered to actually explain to you why it's true instead of just telling you it is."

He waited for the boy to settle, to stop bracing for whatever came next, before he went on.

"Your father's right that strength like his matters. It kept this tribe alive for longer than anyone can count, and it will keep mattering long after I'm not the only strange new thing you all have to deal with. But strength isn't one thing wearing one face. What you did just now, correcting the mothers about the water three days ago, remembering exactly what I said about the channel down to the word — that's not nothing. That's the tribe not losing what it's learned the moment I stop being asked the same question twice. That's the difference between one person understanding something and an entire tribe understanding it. I've watched rooms full of children forget a lesson within a week without someone like you in it to remind everyone else. You are that, for this tribe, right now, whether anyone else has noticed yet or not."

Grok didn't say anything for a long moment. When he finally spoke, his voice had steadied, just slightly, into something Ben recognized — the particular, careful tone of a kid deciding, in real time, whether to actually believe something good about himself or file it away as a nice thing an adult said once.

"Nobody's ever put it that way before."

"That doesn't make it less true," Ben said. "It just means nobody's said it yet. I intend to keep saying it, as often as it turns out to be useful, until it stops sounding strange to you and starts sounding like something you already knew."

Another pause, and then, quieter, almost embarrassed: "Will you tell me if I get something wrong? When I repeat what you've said to other people. I don't want to get it wrong and have everyone believe the wrong thing because of me."

"Yes," Ben said, and meant it as plainly as he'd meant anything since waking in this stone. "Every time. That's not a punishment, by the way. That's just what happens when you're actually trying to get something right instead of just trying to look like you already know it. The second kind of person never asks that question."

He heard, for the first time since the conversation started, something that might have been the very beginning of a smile in the boy's voice, small and uncertain but real. "Then I suppose I'm the first kind."

"You are," Ben agreed. "By a fairly wide margin, as far as I can tell."

Grok stayed a while longer after that, not asking anything else, simply sitting in the quiet the way he always did. At one point he asked, almost idly, whether Ben had ever had a father who told him he wasn't good enough at anything, and Ben found himself hesitating for the first time in the conversation — some of the sharper edges of his old life having gone soft and distant in a way he couldn't fully explain, memories present but strangely muted, like photographs left too long in the sun. He said, honestly, that he didn't remember clearly anymore, and that this not-remembering had started to worry him a little, and Grok, with a gentleness Ben hadn't expected from a child nursing his own fresh wound, said that maybe it was better that way, if it meant Ben got to start over without carrying anyone else's verdict about him either.

Ben found he didn't have a good answer to that, and said so, and Grok seemed satisfied enough with the honesty of it to let the question go.

They talked a while longer about smaller things — which berries near the eastern wall were safe to eat raw and which needed cooking first, a piece of practical knowledge Ben was faintly embarrassed to admit he'd been guessing at until Grok corrected him with the easy confidence of someone who'd actually eaten the wrong one once and paid for it, describing the resulting stomachache in enough vivid, aggrieved detail that Ben found himself almost laughing, an odd, unfamiliar sensation for something with no lungs to laugh with. Ben made him repeat the correction twice, partly to fix it properly in his own borrowed memory, and partly, if he was honest with himself, simply to keep the conversation going a little longer than it strictly needed to.

When the footsteps finally did retreat, later than usual, they sounded lighter than they had arrived — not lighter in weight, exactly, but lighter in the specific way a person's steps change once some old, heavy certainty about themselves has been quietly, carefully set down.

Ben settled into the dark once the sound had faded completely, turning the whole exchange over the way he used to turn over a good day's teaching on the drive home, back when there had been a drive home to have thoughts on.

*Strength isn't one thing wearing one face,* he thought again, testing the phrase the way he tested most things now, out of old habit. *I should probably find a way to make Rekk hear that one eventually. Preferably before Grum finds another audience to say the opposite in front of.*

He didn't know yet how long it would take for the rest of the tribe to notice what he'd already started to see clearly in the boy who kept coming back to sit quietly at his feet. He only knew, with a certainty that felt entirely earned this time, that it was going to matter a great deal more than anyone currently arguing about spears and drills understood.

He thought, before the night finally settled into full quiet around him, that there was something almost funny about the shape his second life had taken so far — that after fifteen years spent trying to convince exhausted colleagues, skeptical parents, and distracted seven-year-olds that patience mattered as much as talent, he had died and been reborn as a literal, motionless rock, and had somehow still ended up doing exactly the same job, just slower, and with considerably higher stakes attached to every lesson. He wasn't sure yet whether that counted as a curse or a strange kind of mercy. For tonight, at least, listening to the last of the boy's footsteps fade into the dark, he decided it counted as neither, and simply let it be what it was — a quiet hollow, a dripping fissure, and, somewhere out there under an unfamiliar sky, one small student slowly learning to believe something better about himself than the world had bothered to offer him so far. It was, Ben thought, as good a reason as any to have kept on existing at all, in whatever strange, motionless, unexpected form this second life had chosen to hand him, and he found, turning the thought over one last time before the hollow finally settled into its ordinary nighttime quiet, that he was no longer inclined to argue with it.

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