Chapter 23

Chapter 23: Kael and Seren

Chapter 23: Kael and Seren

Three days after the northern report, we redirect the link.

It's smaller than the eastern approach correction — a piece of correspondence that gets delayed by a day, a meeting that gets rescheduled for reasons that have nothing to do with us, a natural shift in timing that means Kael is not in the right place at the right moment for the chain to catch him. No documents vanish. No one loses a morning.

But The Ink notices.

I know because Theo comes in that afternoon with his usual stack of documents and stops in the middle of his rounds, just for a moment, with the same slightly unfocused quality he had after the first correction. Not as severe. Not as long. He blinks, continues, goes about his work. I don't think he registers it as anything unusual.

Kael is at his table. He watches Theo complete his rounds and leave. Then he looks back at his file.

I've seen him make calculations before — the specific quality of his attention when he's doing arithmetic about something that doesn't have clean numbers. He's doing that now. Not visibly, not in a way anyone else would notice. But I'm not anyone else; I've spent forty-four days learning the particular texture of his thinking, and I know what it looks like when he's counting something.

He's counting Theo.

Not the afternoon Theo lost, which is already recovered. The accumulation. The cost of each intervention, small as each one is, adding to the same column. I don't say anything. There's nothing to say. We both already know this.

This is one of the things I've come to understand about Kael: he tracks costs. Not in an accountant's way, not obsessively, but with the specific attention of someone who has been responsible for other people's wellbeing for long enough that awareness of impact has become reflexive. Every intervention we make costs someone something — usually Theo, usually minor, always real. He's been noting each one the way you note small withdrawals from something that can't be easily replenished.

I've been noting them too. But differently. He knows these people — he's been watching Theo since the boy started as an archive runner, has watched him grow into the role, knows his family. I've been here forty-four days. I'm watching a cost he's been accounting for years.

We don't talk about it. We don't need to.

---

Four days after the northern redirect, I know Seren will come.

This is not precognition or draft-knowledge — it's pattern recognition, the specific version that develops when you've watched someone long enough to understand their rhythms. I've been watching Seren for more than three weeks now — not deliberately, not the way you watch someone you're studying, but the ambient observation that accumulates when you're in the same world as a person and paying attention.

She has a pattern to how she moves through her days. Most people do, I think, but Seren's is particularly legible because she doesn't vary it based on mood or convenience. She moves through her life with the consistency of someone who has thought about how they want to live it and is living it that way. Market on certain days. Archive when she needs records or has information to deliver. Settlement hall when there are community matters. The pattern shifts with seasons and specific circumstances, but the underlying structure holds. Seren has a way of appearing in the archive around certain kinds of mornings: overcast but not raining, the settlement in a particular mid-week lull, the kind of day where smaller tasks get attended to because the larger ones are waiting. I've learned this by being here when she comes and noting what kind of morning it is each time.

Today is that kind of morning.

I arrive at the archive with the alternative draft in my folder and sit down and work and wait.

---

She comes mid-morning.

A document that needs Kael's signature — something about the boundary mediation, a formal record for the settlement files. The kind of thing that could have been sent with Theo, that she could have left at the gate office and had returned signed by end of day. Instead she's here, in person, in the archive, setting the document on Kael's table and sitting in the chair against the wall while he reads it.

I look at the supply records I was cross-referencing.

I do not look up.

Kael signs the document. Passes it back to her. She should leave. She doesn't. She says something — I don't track the words, I'm not trying to — and he puts down his pen and turns toward her, the specific shift of attention that means he's given someone his full focus.

I turn to a new page in the records.

I'm aware of what I'm doing. I've been aware of it since I made the decision, sometime in the past four days, that this conversation wasn't mine to witness. I built the scene on paper. I know the architecture of it. What I don't know, and have been deliberately not-knowing, is the texture of what it actually looks like when Kael sets down something he's been carrying, in real time, in a real room, to a real person.

I think I made the right decision about not knowing it. Some things belong to the people having them. The scene in the draft exists so the world can be different after it. How it actually unfolds is between them.

The thing about choosing not to listen is that it requires active maintenance in a way that passive inattention doesn't. I'm not ignoring them. I'm choosing, continuously, not to redirect my attention toward them. Every sentence I read is a small deliberate act of not-listening. Every notation I make is me deciding, again, that this is their space and I'm in it but not of it right now.

I write down a cross-reference I've already noted.

I notice I've written it down twice. I scratch out the duplicate.

---

Time passes. I don't track it precisely — I'm trying not to track anything in that part of the room. What I'm aware of is the quality of the air, the way you're aware of weather without looking out the window.

At some point the conversation changes texture.

I don't know when, exactly, because I've been keeping my attention away from it. But there's a quality shift — the ambient sound of two people exchanging information giving way to something slower, more careful. The specific pace of a conversation that has moved from practical to personal. I've been in this room long enough to know the difference.

Kael is talking. I can hear his voice as a quality without hearing the words — low, measured, the register he uses when he's saying something he's thought about for a long time. Not performing, not explaining. Offering. The way you offer something you've been carrying by setting it on a table between you and the other person and letting them decide what to do with it.

I look out the window.

The settlement is doing its mid-morning things — a cart going past on the road, someone crossing toward the market, the ordinary traffic of people living their lives. I watch the cart without really seeing it and I think about the four pages of draft I wrote in my room, about Kael's two precise paragraphs, about the scene we built together from what he knew about carrying things and what I knew about what Seren needed to hear.

I wrote this scene.

But I'm not in it. And that's exactly right.

---

A silence.

Not the comfortable working silence of the archive — a different kind. The silence after something has been said that has weight. I've sat in enough significant silences in this room to know the texture.

Then Seren speaks.

I don't catch the words. I catch the tone — and the tone is the thing I was listening for without admitting I was listening for it. Not upset. Not overwhelmed. Surprised, in the specific way you're surprised when you discover that something you thought was invisible has been seen. The sound of someone encountering evidence of their own existence in the world.

I keep my eyes on the window.

My pencil is in my hand and I am not writing anything.

Another silence. Longer. The kind of silence that has more in it than a conversation — the kind where both people are sitting with what has just been said, taking stock, letting it settle into the existing structure of things before building on it or responding.

I put my pencil down.

I look at the records on the table in front of me and see them as objects rather than as work — the physical presence of documents I've been doing things to, not the cross-references and notations I've been engaged with.

Something has landed in the other part of the room.

I don't know exactly what. I know the shape of it — the way you know the shape of a sound without knowing its source. Something has been said and received. The scene in the draft has become a scene in the world.

I've been a writer for eight years, which means I've imagined a lot of scenes that existed only on the page — people saying things to each other in rooms I made up, with furniture I described and light I specified and pauses I wrote in after the dialogue. I've imagined those scenes as clearly as I could, tried to make them real on the page.

This one was real before I got here to see it.

---

Seren stands.

I hear the specific sound of the chair she's been sitting in — I know that chair from Kael's table, the one with the slightly uneven leg that makes a particular scrape when moved. She says something to Kael that I don't catch. Footsteps.

She's crossing toward the door.

She stops.

"Reverie."

I look up.

She's standing at the edge of my table. Looking at me with an expression I haven't seen on her before — not the warm pleasant quality of the market, not the practical efficiency of the archive visits. Something that has more depth in it. Something settled.

"Thank you for the records last week," she says.

I look at her.

We both know that's not what she's saying. She knows I know. I know she knows. The records last week were real — I helped her with a survey date discrepancy, a genuine piece of archive work. But that's not what she's thanking me for.

She's thanking me for whatever she can see, from the outside, of what I've been doing in this room. The work I didn't explain to her when she said *that looks complicated.* The thing that produced this morning.

"You're welcome," I say.

She holds my gaze for a moment. Then she nods — a specific nod, the kind that means *I see this and I'm not making more of it than it is* — and goes.

The door closes.

---

The archive is quiet.

Kael is at his table. I'm at mine. Aldren is somewhere in his alcove. The morning light does what it does.

I sit for a while with what just happened settling the way things settle when you've been waiting for something and then it arrives and the arriving is different from the waiting because the waiting is a space you've been holding and the arriving fills it with something real.

After a while, Kael says: "I said it."

Not looking up from his table. The tone of someone who has processed something and is delivering a conclusion.

"How was it?" I ask.

A pause. The specific pause of someone searching for accurate rather than easy words.

"Like setting something down," he says. "Something I'd been carrying for a long time without deciding to."

I look at the draft folder on my table.

"She didn't know," he says. "She thought she was — invisible in that way. Doing things that mattered but not expecting to be seen doing them." A pause. "She'd built that into how she understood herself. That she could move through the world making things slightly better and no one would specifically notice."

"She was wrong," I say.

"Yes." A moment. "She never was invisible. I saw her from the beginning. I just —" He stops. Finds it. "Waited for the right time. Which kept not arriving, for years, because the right time for something like that never announces itself."

I think about thirty-nine days of waiting for the right time. About east-facing windows and fourth-bell patrol routes and letters I didn't write. About how the right time for things often doesn't arrive on its own — it has to be created by someone deciding that now is close enough.

"She never was," I say again. "Invisible."

"No," he says.

We work through the afternoon. Parallel, quiet, the archive doing its amber light thing. At some point Aldren emerges from his alcove, deposits a note on Kael's table, returns. Theo comes, completes his rounds, goes. The day continues.

I think about what Kael said — *she'd built that into how she understood herself.* The way a person can construct a self-concept around an absence. Seren had understood herself, for a long time, as someone who moved through the world making things better without being specifically seen doing it. Not unappreciated — that's different. Just unseen in a particular way. The way the foundations of a building are functional and essential and invisible.

She was wrong. She was being seen. Kael had been watching for years.

I wonder, sitting with this in the amber light of the archive, whether that's part of why the conversation needed to happen now rather than years ago — not because the moment hadn't arrived, but because there was a person in this room who had been watching both of them long enough to see the thing they couldn't see about each other.

---

Kael leaves at the usual time. I stay.

I pull out the map and the alternative draft and lay them on the table side by side, as we've done many times. I look at the second track — Seren's track — and I look at the list of conditions I've been tracking since we identified the chain's structure.

I've been afraid to check this. This is new — I haven't been afraid of the map before, not exactly. I've been cautious with it, careful, aware of what it represents. But I haven't been afraid to look at it until now, because until now the stakes of what I'd find were theoretical.

Now they're not. Now Seren had a conversation this morning. Now the alternative has moved from draft to event. And the question of whether that event moved the conditions is the question of whether we're making progress or just doing things that feel like progress.

I read through the conditions.

One of them has changed.

Not gone — I don't know enough about how the chain resolves to know if conditions disappear entirely or just shift. But the condition that required Seren to be in a specific state of unrecognized potential — the condition that the chain had been building toward for chapters — that condition is different now. It reads differently against the world I'm living in. The world I'm living in has a Seren who was seen this morning. Who knows she was seen. Who sat with that knowledge in the quiet after a conversation in an archive and walked out with something settled that wasn't settled before.

That's not the Seren the chain needs.

From somewhere in the late afternoon quiet:

*— the arc changed —*

*— I felt that —*

*— they actually did it —*

*— she came back —*

I sit with the map and the changed condition and the specific quality of an afternoon when something that was supposed to be impossible has turned out to be possible.

One track moved.

Kael's track is still there. The chain still has one anchor. I don't know if one anchor is enough to hold the chapter 30 endpoint in place or if two tracks are both required. I don't know how long the shift in Seren's arc will hold before the chain finds a way to restore the condition.

But one track moved.

I close the folder. I blow out the lamp. I walk home through the settlement under the late autumn sky, past Mira Voss's stall and the school and the gate into Dara's street, and I carry the changed condition the way you carry good news when you don't fully know yet what it means — carefully, not wanting to weight it with more than it is, not wanting to diminish it either.

One condition met.

The alternative is working.

I need to sit with that for a moment before I can say it clearly enough to believe it. Not because I doubt the evidence — the condition read differently, the texture of Seren's arc is different, I know how to tell when something has genuinely shifted versus when I'm seeing what I want to see. I've been checking myself against that distinction for forty-four days.

This is a genuine shift.

Kael's track is still present. The chain still has one anchor and I don't know yet if one anchor is enough to hold the chapter 30 endpoint. That's the next problem. But we've moved the second track. We've done something the chain built toward for what I estimate is the equivalent of chapters of narrative, and we've done it by creating the conditions for two people to have a real conversation rather than by cutting a link.

That's different.

I carry that difference home through the settlement, through the late autumn cold, past everything I've been walking past for forty-four days. It has the texture of something that matters. I let it matter.

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Chapter 23

Chapter 23: Kael and Seren

Chapter 23: Kael and Seren

Three days after the northern report, we redirect the link.

It's smaller than the eastern approach correction — a piece of correspondence that gets delayed by a day, a meeting that gets rescheduled for reasons that have nothing to do with us, a natural shift in timing that means Kael is not in the right place at the right moment for the chain to catch him. No documents vanish. No one loses a morning.

But The Ink notices.

I know because Theo comes in that afternoon with his usual stack of documents and stops in the middle of his rounds, just for a moment, with the same slightly unfocused quality he had after the first correction. Not as severe. Not as long. He blinks, continues, goes about his work. I don't think he registers it as anything unusual.

Kael is at his table. He watches Theo complete his rounds and leave. Then he looks back at his file.

I've seen him make calculations before — the specific quality of his attention when he's doing arithmetic about something that doesn't have clean numbers. He's doing that now. Not visibly, not in a way anyone else would notice. But I'm not anyone else; I've spent forty-four days learning the particular texture of his thinking, and I know what it looks like when he's counting something.

He's counting Theo.

Not the afternoon Theo lost, which is already recovered. The accumulation. The cost of each intervention, small as each one is, adding to the same column. I don't say anything. There's nothing to say. We both already know this.

This is one of the things I've come to understand about Kael: he tracks costs. Not in an accountant's way, not obsessively, but with the specific attention of someone who has been responsible for other people's wellbeing for long enough that awareness of impact has become reflexive. Every intervention we make costs someone something — usually Theo, usually minor, always real. He's been noting each one the way you note small withdrawals from something that can't be easily replenished.

I've been noting them too. But differently. He knows these people — he's been watching Theo since the boy started as an archive runner, has watched him grow into the role, knows his family. I've been here forty-four days. I'm watching a cost he's been accounting for years.

We don't talk about it. We don't need to.

---

Four days after the northern redirect, I know Seren will come.

This is not precognition or draft-knowledge — it's pattern recognition, the specific version that develops when you've watched someone long enough to understand their rhythms. I've been watching Seren for more than three weeks now — not deliberately, not the way you watch someone you're studying, but the ambient observation that accumulates when you're in the same world as a person and paying attention.

She has a pattern to how she moves through her days. Most people do, I think, but Seren's is particularly legible because she doesn't vary it based on mood or convenience. She moves through her life with the consistency of someone who has thought about how they want to live it and is living it that way. Market on certain days. Archive when she needs records or has information to deliver. Settlement hall when there are community matters. The pattern shifts with seasons and specific circumstances, but the underlying structure holds. Seren has a way of appearing in the archive around certain kinds of mornings: overcast but not raining, the settlement in a particular mid-week lull, the kind of day where smaller tasks get attended to because the larger ones are waiting. I've learned this by being here when she comes and noting what kind of morning it is each time.

Today is that kind of morning.

I arrive at the archive with the alternative draft in my folder and sit down and work and wait.

---

She comes mid-morning.

A document that needs Kael's signature — something about the boundary mediation, a formal record for the settlement files. The kind of thing that could have been sent with Theo, that she could have left at the gate office and had returned signed by end of day. Instead she's here, in person, in the archive, setting the document on Kael's table and sitting in the chair against the wall while he reads it.

I look at the supply records I was cross-referencing.

I do not look up.

Kael signs the document. Passes it back to her. She should leave. She doesn't. She says something — I don't track the words, I'm not trying to — and he puts down his pen and turns toward her, the specific shift of attention that means he's given someone his full focus.

I turn to a new page in the records.

I'm aware of what I'm doing. I've been aware of it since I made the decision, sometime in the past four days, that this conversation wasn't mine to witness. I built the scene on paper. I know the architecture of it. What I don't know, and have been deliberately not-knowing, is the texture of what it actually looks like when Kael sets down something he's been carrying, in real time, in a real room, to a real person.

I think I made the right decision about not knowing it. Some things belong to the people having them. The scene in the draft exists so the world can be different after it. How it actually unfolds is between them.

The thing about choosing not to listen is that it requires active maintenance in a way that passive inattention doesn't. I'm not ignoring them. I'm choosing, continuously, not to redirect my attention toward them. Every sentence I read is a small deliberate act of not-listening. Every notation I make is me deciding, again, that this is their space and I'm in it but not of it right now.

I write down a cross-reference I've already noted.

I notice I've written it down twice. I scratch out the duplicate.

---

Time passes. I don't track it precisely — I'm trying not to track anything in that part of the room. What I'm aware of is the quality of the air, the way you're aware of weather without looking out the window.

At some point the conversation changes texture.

I don't know when, exactly, because I've been keeping my attention away from it. But there's a quality shift — the ambient sound of two people exchanging information giving way to something slower, more careful. The specific pace of a conversation that has moved from practical to personal. I've been in this room long enough to know the difference.

Kael is talking. I can hear his voice as a quality without hearing the words — low, measured, the register he uses when he's saying something he's thought about for a long time. Not performing, not explaining. Offering. The way you offer something you've been carrying by setting it on a table between you and the other person and letting them decide what to do with it.

I look out the window.

The settlement is doing its mid-morning things — a cart going past on the road, someone crossing toward the market, the ordinary traffic of people living their lives. I watch the cart without really seeing it and I think about the four pages of draft I wrote in my room, about Kael's two precise paragraphs, about the scene we built together from what he knew about carrying things and what I knew about what Seren needed to hear.

I wrote this scene.

But I'm not in it. And that's exactly right.

---

A silence.

Not the comfortable working silence of the archive — a different kind. The silence after something has been said that has weight. I've sat in enough significant silences in this room to know the texture.

Then Seren speaks.

I don't catch the words. I catch the tone — and the tone is the thing I was listening for without admitting I was listening for it. Not upset. Not overwhelmed. Surprised, in the specific way you're surprised when you discover that something you thought was invisible has been seen. The sound of someone encountering evidence of their own existence in the world.

I keep my eyes on the window.

My pencil is in my hand and I am not writing anything.

Another silence. Longer. The kind of silence that has more in it than a conversation — the kind where both people are sitting with what has just been said, taking stock, letting it settle into the existing structure of things before building on it or responding.

I put my pencil down.

I look at the records on the table in front of me and see them as objects rather than as work — the physical presence of documents I've been doing things to, not the cross-references and notations I've been engaged with.

Something has landed in the other part of the room.

I don't know exactly what. I know the shape of it — the way you know the shape of a sound without knowing its source. Something has been said and received. The scene in the draft has become a scene in the world.

I've been a writer for eight years, which means I've imagined a lot of scenes that existed only on the page — people saying things to each other in rooms I made up, with furniture I described and light I specified and pauses I wrote in after the dialogue. I've imagined those scenes as clearly as I could, tried to make them real on the page.

This one was real before I got here to see it.

---

Seren stands.

I hear the specific sound of the chair she's been sitting in — I know that chair from Kael's table, the one with the slightly uneven leg that makes a particular scrape when moved. She says something to Kael that I don't catch. Footsteps.

She's crossing toward the door.

She stops.

"Reverie."

I look up.

She's standing at the edge of my table. Looking at me with an expression I haven't seen on her before — not the warm pleasant quality of the market, not the practical efficiency of the archive visits. Something that has more depth in it. Something settled.

"Thank you for the records last week," she says.

I look at her.

We both know that's not what she's saying. She knows I know. I know she knows. The records last week were real — I helped her with a survey date discrepancy, a genuine piece of archive work. But that's not what she's thanking me for.

She's thanking me for whatever she can see, from the outside, of what I've been doing in this room. The work I didn't explain to her when she said *that looks complicated.* The thing that produced this morning.

"You're welcome," I say.

She holds my gaze for a moment. Then she nods — a specific nod, the kind that means *I see this and I'm not making more of it than it is* — and goes.

The door closes.

---

The archive is quiet.

Kael is at his table. I'm at mine. Aldren is somewhere in his alcove. The morning light does what it does.

I sit for a while with what just happened settling the way things settle when you've been waiting for something and then it arrives and the arriving is different from the waiting because the waiting is a space you've been holding and the arriving fills it with something real.

After a while, Kael says: "I said it."

Not looking up from his table. The tone of someone who has processed something and is delivering a conclusion.

"How was it?" I ask.

A pause. The specific pause of someone searching for accurate rather than easy words.

"Like setting something down," he says. "Something I'd been carrying for a long time without deciding to."

I look at the draft folder on my table.

"She didn't know," he says. "She thought she was — invisible in that way. Doing things that mattered but not expecting to be seen doing them." A pause. "She'd built that into how she understood herself. That she could move through the world making things slightly better and no one would specifically notice."

"She was wrong," I say.

"Yes." A moment. "She never was invisible. I saw her from the beginning. I just —" He stops. Finds it. "Waited for the right time. Which kept not arriving, for years, because the right time for something like that never announces itself."

I think about thirty-nine days of waiting for the right time. About east-facing windows and fourth-bell patrol routes and letters I didn't write. About how the right time for things often doesn't arrive on its own — it has to be created by someone deciding that now is close enough.

"She never was," I say again. "Invisible."

"No," he says.

We work through the afternoon. Parallel, quiet, the archive doing its amber light thing. At some point Aldren emerges from his alcove, deposits a note on Kael's table, returns. Theo comes, completes his rounds, goes. The day continues.

I think about what Kael said — *she'd built that into how she understood herself.* The way a person can construct a self-concept around an absence. Seren had understood herself, for a long time, as someone who moved through the world making things better without being specifically seen doing it. Not unappreciated — that's different. Just unseen in a particular way. The way the foundations of a building are functional and essential and invisible.

She was wrong. She was being seen. Kael had been watching for years.

I wonder, sitting with this in the amber light of the archive, whether that's part of why the conversation needed to happen now rather than years ago — not because the moment hadn't arrived, but because there was a person in this room who had been watching both of them long enough to see the thing they couldn't see about each other.

---

Kael leaves at the usual time. I stay.

I pull out the map and the alternative draft and lay them on the table side by side, as we've done many times. I look at the second track — Seren's track — and I look at the list of conditions I've been tracking since we identified the chain's structure.

I've been afraid to check this. This is new — I haven't been afraid of the map before, not exactly. I've been cautious with it, careful, aware of what it represents. But I haven't been afraid to look at it until now, because until now the stakes of what I'd find were theoretical.

Now they're not. Now Seren had a conversation this morning. Now the alternative has moved from draft to event. And the question of whether that event moved the conditions is the question of whether we're making progress or just doing things that feel like progress.

I read through the conditions.

One of them has changed.

Not gone — I don't know enough about how the chain resolves to know if conditions disappear entirely or just shift. But the condition that required Seren to be in a specific state of unrecognized potential — the condition that the chain had been building toward for chapters — that condition is different now. It reads differently against the world I'm living in. The world I'm living in has a Seren who was seen this morning. Who knows she was seen. Who sat with that knowledge in the quiet after a conversation in an archive and walked out with something settled that wasn't settled before.

That's not the Seren the chain needs.

From somewhere in the late afternoon quiet:

*— the arc changed —*

*— I felt that —*

*— they actually did it —*

*— she came back —*

I sit with the map and the changed condition and the specific quality of an afternoon when something that was supposed to be impossible has turned out to be possible.

One track moved.

Kael's track is still there. The chain still has one anchor. I don't know if one anchor is enough to hold the chapter 30 endpoint in place or if two tracks are both required. I don't know how long the shift in Seren's arc will hold before the chain finds a way to restore the condition.

But one track moved.

I close the folder. I blow out the lamp. I walk home through the settlement under the late autumn sky, past Mira Voss's stall and the school and the gate into Dara's street, and I carry the changed condition the way you carry good news when you don't fully know yet what it means — carefully, not wanting to weight it with more than it is, not wanting to diminish it either.

One condition met.

The alternative is working.

I need to sit with that for a moment before I can say it clearly enough to believe it. Not because I doubt the evidence — the condition read differently, the texture of Seren's arc is different, I know how to tell when something has genuinely shifted versus when I'm seeing what I want to see. I've been checking myself against that distinction for forty-four days.

This is a genuine shift.

Kael's track is still present. The chain still has one anchor and I don't know yet if one anchor is enough to hold the chapter 30 endpoint. That's the next problem. But we've moved the second track. We've done something the chain built toward for what I estimate is the equivalent of chapters of narrative, and we've done it by creating the conditions for two people to have a real conversation rather than by cutting a link.

That's different.

I carry that difference home through the settlement, through the late autumn cold, past everything I've been walking past for forty-four days. It has the texture of something that matters. I let it matter.

You've reached the end of this chapter